I hate even writing this....
I hate even writing this....
because I feel so stupid. I went out a this weekend and saw the biker guy. (for those of you that haven't read my post, he is someone I started dating after the ex-nar). I did go up to him, and just ask him how he was doing. Short conversation, he was cordial. The rest of the night i was with my friends, I thought the night went fine.
But today I am a mess, I checked out his facebook and he has some comment about woman shouldn't put up with men that treat them badly in reference to one of his friends. I later text him, asking him if we could at least be friends. Of course, no answer, I set myself up.
Now i spinning from this, totally rejected again. He seem to care about people, other people had told me he was very kind. Probably just lies I wanted to believe, my son told me the opposite, that he is a bully.
I can't stop crying, can't get myself to do anything. Then thoughts of the ex-narcbf comes flooding in. Again I wondering what the hell is wrong with me.
I thought if I shared on the forum, it would help me not doing anything worse. I'm fighting myself, I want to go over his house and talk to him. I already did this once before, when I was driving over I kept thinking how many times I did that with the ex-narcbf. I just feel like I'm a freak, and no man can stand me. I keep replaying everything thinking what did I do so bad?
Now I over 70 days nc with the ex-narcbf, but I back to square one with the biker guy. How did I get addict so fast? Is it just the behavior I"m addicited to and not the man? Help, anyone.
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