Out of the fog...

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#1 Oct 27 - 4PM
Darlene
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Out of the fog...

G,

It's been a long road. I loved you so deeply, and you didn't deserve it. I'm still miserable over you, but I'm working on it...

I finally took your number out of my phone-today. The last fragment of you....

As time goes by, I remember more and more....things I don't want and never intend to go back to...

You promised so much, made all these wonderful plans with me. Lies....bullshit is a better word, I guess...

I was so under your thumb....for awhile....not now...

I think about you every day, but that will fade...

Do I wish you the best? No...

Do I think fondly of your daughters? No...

Am I getting me back? Do I feel my sense of worth? Yes...

Do I miss your hypochondriac ways? Do I miss serving your meals to you in your bed like a waitrtess? Do I miss meaningless sex? No...

I miss truth... never had that with you.

I miss our first year, that man. But, that was really me, wasn't it? Before you sucked out my soul.

I miss laughing...you can't...

I miss being loved....you can't...

I miss compassion....you can't...

If love ever finds me again, If I let it, it will be healthy....you aren't...

Goodbye G....you ruined me...but I'm rebuilding....

Your Baby....no more....

P.S. You might want to invest in some fireproof clothing....you'll probably need it....

Dec 1 - 3PM
angelica
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So much the same

Oct 27 - 6PM
karlak
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Great Goodbye