It's a losing battle
It's a losing battle
It is difficult to begin when you really don't know where to begin.
I've read a LOT of the posts on here. He would say they are a bunch of whiners. But I know. You can't escape something that rings true over and over.
Sadly I was a broken woman. And he was quickly to pounce.
It was easy to point out my flaws because I had many. I had a good heart, but it didn't matter. Because when you deal with a master manipulator, your flaws are the key.
And he had many flaws, but I didn't see that. I saw someone rescuing me from a terrible situation. And he played on that over and over.
I have to say the gaslighting is the worst. Without going into detail, a person with NPD can make you feel absolutely worthless.
I tried to kill myself several times while I was with him. And he encouraged me a few of those times. Reminding me what a piece of shit I was. Or a pig. Whore. You know the game. And he would pick me up from the hospital and start all over again.
I'm still trying to get away. I know I'm not those things.
And reminding him he isn't such a great person doesn't work. They have no feelings. No emotions. Nothing works. It's a horrible cycle of abuse.
Thanks for the group. I'll continue reading. Maybe add to the story.
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