On "Always"
On "Always"
I don't know if anyone else experienced this, but the narcissist I've been involved with had really bizarre ideas about the idea of "always". One time in particular he told me in an email (information which, by the way, I did not ask for...but he just kind of offered a bit out of the blue) that he knew one of his ex-girlfriends, who is now married and requested four years ago for him to NEVER contact her again, still loves him. He said that he knows that she does and that love is given and love is received...and then went on to tell me that friends are always friends, that it lasts forever. He told me that even if he moves away or he gets married (or anything which to most people would signify an end to a prior relationship) he never really leaves, that none of those things constitutes leaving, that he has never left, that he has always been there (even though throughout the relationship there have been several times when he has requested a "friendship at a distance"--which is a ridiculous idea to anyone who thinks).
That email wasn't the first time I'd thought that there was just something not quite right...but after I read it, I remember kind of getting this sick feeling in my stomach. Kind of one of those "what exactly have I gotten myself into" moments. With this particular guy, the whole "being there" thing is a prevalent theme...and really, there is just something off, I think, in a person who professes an "always" to make sure he gets one in return. Just recently, actually, he made some random comment to me in a text about how "tomorrow would always be there".
At the end of the day, though, he uses "always" as an aloe that he makes a show at offering, and it is a very pretty show, some nicely thick aloe, when it comes. The thing is, though, that aloe comes in really small bottles, something he doesn't bother to warn you about at the outset, which means you'd better either learn to conserve or get used to feeling sunburned. And, of course, the thing he thinks he is offering to you is, in reality, the thing he wants most from you.
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