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#1 Sep 8 - 10PM
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for barbara

i went for an assessment with a psychologist who specializes in ptsd and trauma in general .and i was diagnosed with it. he said i have had it a long time, which is sad and hard to come to terms with.
this bad relationship brought all my symptoms out, and i am just glad i am finally going to deal with it all.
the psychopath certainly knew what he was doing, and how to bring it all out of me. i'm still blown away that someone could be naturally malicious. scary.
thanks again for recommending i get help. i know it is going to be hard painful work.

Sep 9 - 6AM
Barbara (not verified)
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infinity

I hope everyone, especially newbies here - listen to this. I am relieved you are getting help. I have permanent PTSD myself and will always be on meds and have some therapy going on as needed. Getting proper help is a big thing you can do for YOU and creating a gentle and positive life for yourself! ~~~~~~~~~~~~ CLICK HERE: Articles & information for Narc Victims - Updated Daily "As soon as you feel that crazy sense of walking on eggshells, fending off N-rage, stop. Walk away." - Dr. M. Beck
Sep 9 - 9AM (Reply to #4)
infinity (not verified)
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i burst into tears the

i burst into tears the second i walked into the doctors office. i think it was in part to being diagnosed and finally getting help. i can't even imagine being in a place where i have a gentle and positive life. other than being with my kids, the whole idea seems so foreign. and to think that there are people that have always had a calm and gentle life is mind blowing. i can't wait to reach that point.
Sep 9 - 7AM (Reply to #2)
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infinity

I'm glad for you that youre getting help for this. I'm sure I have PTSD. I think I've had it for a very long time. What's weird, or maybe not so weird about it, is that it shows itself when I am in a relationship. Being that all of my relationships seem to have been with the same sort of man, it makes sense. I just started therapy after this break up, and I have hope. But the therapist and those that are close to me always say I do so good when I'm not in a relationship, but as soon as I get involved I go down hill. I'm beginning to think its best to accept this and never be in a relationship again. I don't think it ever works for me. But I'm doing the work.
Sep 9 - 9AM (Reply to #3)
infinity (not verified)
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same here. and i think its

same here. and i think its in part to us feeling "safe" out of a relationship, with no extra worries. i know therapy will be long and hard, but i just can't go on like this anymore. i have a session thursday night after work. my kids say the same thing about me, i am more calm, grounded, and centred when i'm not in a relationship. hopefully after a year of therapy i'll be in a better place, and be ready to date. i also always date the same sort of man. we can't give up finding a good man. the doctor said i've probably had ptsd since i was 12. and now that my kids are away at school, and i'm alone, it is all coming out. scary. i know i have exhibited symptoms all along, but nothing like this. i am so grateful for this site. no one else understands, and i have learned that when people say how are you i just smile and say fine thank you.