Lost and confused

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#1 January 3, 2018 - 3:55am
Cornflakegirl
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Lost and confused

I ended my marriage 6 weeks ago after the discovery that he had been cheating the entire 9 years we were married. Countless women, attempts to meet men, he lied and lied and lied. He did things behind my back I cannot bring myself to share for the pure humiliation, hurt and disbelief I’m paralysed by. He has spent years honing his style to successfully cover his tracks, convincing me that he was perfect and it was ‘other men’ that did such despicable things to their wives. I finally extracted as much detail as I could and was horrified. I’m still in shock. We have children, I am left to manage their expectations and I’m working hard to keep things amicable and stable for them but he uses this to try and pull me back in, telling me he’s changed, that therapy has cured him. I’m very confused. What we had wasn’t real, I cannot rid my mind of tbf images. My family are distraught. How do I get through this without making terrible decisions?