What if I run into him?
What if I run into him?
What if I'm out and i see him? How will I respond? I play the scenario in my mind and I see myself losing control, weakening in the knees, tears welling up, panic and adrenaline taking over my body and mind and once again, my soul.
Do I have to constantly be ON GUARD? Everywhere I go? Even then, ON GUARD as one can be, how will I react? And what if I see him with another woman?
This is my biggest struggle. N free and NC since June and this is what I think about....a chance encounter and my reaction.
And the dreams....OMG, the dreams!!! Over and over. Reliving the pain in my sleep...God, will it ever end? Does it? NO ONE gets it except for the people on this forum. But my day to day people dont get it. I can't convey it to them. No one gets it. I guess cuz they haven't lost their souls.....................
devoured- soul
hey devoured soul
devoured_soul