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#1 Apr 25 - 10AM
Pip1
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My story

Hi I'm just dying inside . I don't know which way to turn . I cannot deal with this pain any longer . I threw my husband out 6 weeks ago after years of emotional abuse . He called me crazy continually , I was obssessed with constantly going over our lives trying to fiqure out why everything was my fault . I couldn't just shut up , if I had maybe we'd still be together . I needed to talk about our life our rows but he wouldn't . He would lose his temper every time I tried to talk about the latest row trying to explain my side . It consumed my every thought. I begged for the man he promised he would be but he would say I'd have to prove myself as a wife first . He said I'd have to stop asking questions and be normal then he might be a husband . I'd try to talk to him about how his lies and lack of respect for our marriage made me feel he just didn't want to know . My children lost all respect for me they were disgusted at what I had become . It was like no one believed me and like I really was crazy. I eventually had written proof of one of his many lies and it resulted in him beating me up. He then said I must have hurt myself as he would never have hit me - I stated to believe him . One day something snapped and I threw him out . No one knows what I'd give to have him back I'm lost completely . I can barely do my job but it's all I have now and need it more than ever . I lay in the bath today , trying to drown myself but I couldn't even do that . I am
Now obsessing about what I could have done differently as it must be my fault . It is like he has disappeared out of my life and the pain is like no other .

Apr 26 - 7AM
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landing a plane in the FOG