6 months NC

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#1 Nov 30 - 12PM
Winter
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6 months NC

So today it has been 6 months since I ended the toxic relationship and went NC.

There are no words which would describe the way I felt back then. But I am sure, unfortunately, you all know what I mean. Nothing in the world could distract me from the terrible pain, the CD, the anxiety, the sadness, the unbearable emptiness. I was not suicidal, but was thinking “how wonderful it is when you just don’t feel anything, anything at all”

Today I have to quote Mark Twain saying that “the reports of my death have been greatly exaggerated” My interest in life is back, my mood has increased, I enjoy simple activities, I smile to people, I invent my holydays and weekends. I love my life!

There are still few glitches here and there. He still pops up in my mind from time to time, but I am not consumed with these thoughts anymore and, even when they come, there is no more emotional charge associated to them.
I consider that this place played a huge role in my healing.

So, I want to thank Liza, the wonderful Mods which all have the big hearts and the rare competency as well as each and everyone on this forum for helping on my path to recovery.

Love

Winter

Nov 30 - 10PM
Sea
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Winter Congrats! 6 months

Winter Congrats! 6 months NC! You have been a great inspiration here and I really appreciate your advice on so many of my questions. Thank You! NC all the way to a beautiful future for you :) God Bless! Sumiko
Nov 30 - 2PM
Done sourcing
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Way to go on 6 months NC.

Way to go on 6 months NC. That is a huge milestone. 180 plus days narc free. It is so nice to hear that you have good experiences, have re-joined the human race, and smile often and plan events. That you think of the narc from time to time is normal, of course, and doesn't need to be resisted or judged. I would get so mad at myself for even thinking of her, but I now remind myself that those thoughts pop in for numerous reasons...and key for me is that I can observe myself doing it and turn my thoughts to something else instead. My favorite is to think of the Holy Spirit coming into my little world and changing my perception of what I think I am seeing. I will take this light moment to share a story I read this morning about a Buddhist in New York. The Buddhist is walking around the city and comes across a hot dog vendor. He walks up and asks for a dog with everything, and then hands the vendor a five dollar bill. The vendor prepares the dog and hands it over to the Buddhist. The Buddhist stands there for a moment and then realizing he hasn't gotten back the change for the five dollars he asks the vendor for his change. The vendor smiles knowingly, and replies, "change comes from within". We can talk and talk, and we do, but the real change does indeed come from within. When we become willing to finally change something in ourselves, usually after a more than sufficient amount of pain , the healing has begun. It is nice being in the presence of healing and growth and mental health, and your words and thoughts bring help and hope to many here. Thank you, ds
Nov 30 - 1PM
Hermes
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Winter!

That is wonderful Winter. And I am finding it so comforting just re-reading your post. As it will be a comfort to those just new on here. Hermes
Nov 30 - 1PM
Hunter
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:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LcxYwwIL5zQ&feature=youtube_gdata_player Hunter
Nov 30 - 2PM (Reply to #11)
Layla
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Oh my gosh...........

..........our little resident "Grinch" just Zip-a-dee-doo-dah'ed Winter...............heheheeeeeeeeeee........... love~ Layla
Nov 30 - 2PM (Reply to #12)
Winter
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Layla, I really identify my self with him...lol

No kidding, lol, that's EXACTLY the way I feel :) Hunter is unbelievable!
Nov 30 - 1PM (Reply to #10)
Done sourcing
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Zipadeedoodah to you too

Zipadeedoodah to you too Hunter!!! ds
Nov 30 - 1PM
nancyh
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Winter, 6 months, that's

Winter, 6 months, that's great! Keep up the great work! Nan

Nan

Nov 30 - 1PM
strivingforhealing (not verified)
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You are a Warrior Winter!

There are several women on this forum who stand out to me- with their humility and wisdom and strength- and you are one of them. I think you rock! Take this day and do many nice and loving things for yourself. XO Striving
Nov 30 - 1PM
Emma
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Winter

Well done you. I hope I achieve what you have! x
Nov 30 - 1PM
smnp
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Lovely to read!

Winter, I always look forward to your posts. You are kind, compassionate, and insightful. I, personally, have appreciated you being here. Today, it is so encouraging to hear how well you are doing. 6 months! Incredible! Congratulations! S ps- I'm ONE month NC today. I feel like we should have cake or something! Ha.
Nov 30 - 1PM
Layla
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Congratulations on 6 Months NC Winter!!!

Thank you for all of your beautiful words of truth and wisdom you share with all of us on the site!!! YAY YOU!!!! love~ Layla
Nov 30 - 12PM
Sparrow
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Winter, that is great news!

Winter, that is great news! You should be proud! I am glad you have come to heal! I sure hope that new members read your post, as well as mine and many others, and are inspired by them and believe that they too will come to heal. It's a long journey but one very much worth taking! Peace to you today girl! Great job! :)
Nov 30 - 12PM
spinning
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Winter, you are an awesome

inspiration and have helped many people throughout your process. You are strong and wise. You so deserve the happiness and lightness of being that you feel now. Thank you for posting this. It is yet more proof that NC is the key to freedom and joy. NC is the key to a new and better life and gives us the time and opportunity to examine ourselves in a way that we grow and come out stronger and better. Winter, I am so glad you are here! You are valued and valuable. Thank you again for all you do and for sharing. Love, (not) spinning. JUST GRINNING AT YOUR SUCCESS!

spinning

Nov 30 - 12PM
Used
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winter

WELL DONE WINTER, THANKYOU FOR THANKING US....BUT ITS ULTIMATELY YOU, AND ONLY YOU THAT CAN GO NC AND STICK TO IT....YOU HAVE DONE THIS VERY THING.... I HOPE YOU ARE VERY PROUD OF YOURSELF, YOU DESERVE TO BE....6 WHOLE MONTHS....HALF A YEAR...TOO AMAZING FOR ANY MORE WORDS...XXXXX