About codependency again.
About codependency again.
"The central concept is that the codependent individual "takes it" and "understands," despite feeling hurt. Waiting for brownie points in heaven, or for a loved one to be magically healed through their persistent love and care taking, they accept disrespect from others. It does not occur to the codependent person that it is not OK to "take it" and "put up" no matter what!"
This is so ME!! Yes it is, especially the waiting for the brownie part, it`s put very funny.
The reason why I made this post, is because today was relatively a fine day, until one moment. I had an incident a coupple of days ago, because I had my cable cut off. And guess what, not because I hadn`t paid it, but because "someone" had played and disconeccted a wire from above my appartment. From the entire block and people, MINE was the only one that "happened" to be disconnected.
I suspected my landlord. There are few people who really know where do I live, and would care to do that. I suspect him because he behaves a bit strange like, calls when he says he doesn`t, comes unnanounced.
And today I got ANGRY. Called the landlord and told him that if he has time for games and stuff like that, he can play them with someone else not me. And that I HOPE, it wasn`t him who played through my wires (though I`m almost certain he was). I just don`t like being taken as a fool, as long as I pay my bills and my rent on time. Of course, he behaved like nothing had happened, but this was a Warning, and I made myself understood.
Aaah. And then it came the realisation and the article that I found, connected to codependency. Codependents are not used to truly express their anger. They usually have taken so much, and are used to be mistreated and have their boundaries stepped over, that they would rather make excuses for the abusive behaviour, THAN deal with the anger inside. Because feeling it, it`s scary, when for years you were made to feel guilty for being angry, or been mistreated.
So I guess today I had what is called "healthy anger", as a reaction to a personal mistreatment (or even perceived mistreatment). But still, I had to express it.
It is an interesting article about codependents, the way they put up with A LOT, for fear of being alone, for fear of feeling their deep buried feelings inside, and that`s the reason why they use abusive relationships as a distraction.
http://www.drirene.com/coinfor.htm
I`m learning to put boundaries, say "NO" when I feel wronged. It`s all new to me :)
Thank you for reading.
Codependancy
Good for you!!! Keep moving
Thank you lots GG!
How interesting!
You`re welcome! Codependents
Love this, greengirl!
I do? :) Thank you Layla!!
His your landlord associated
Oh, dear Sparrow, no, no he
Excellent post! Thank you so
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God sometimes removes a person from your life for your protection. Don't run after them.
Thank you, thank you so
Boundaries are very
Sparrow, thank you, I was