Affairs, lying, cheating etc etc etc

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#1 Jul 27 - 11PM
katie k
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Affairs, lying, cheating etc etc etc

I have been separated for 10 months from my NH of 33 years. I have 2 boys ages 20 and 15 (loves of my life!) It's true what they say about us suffering from PTSD. This has been a nightmare. It feels like war.
My NH and I sought marriage counseling 15 years ago when we separated briefly for 3 months. I thought we did well! But unbeknownst to me, my NH just stayed for the kids....for 15 more years! And while we were separated he was having an affair that lasted well after our counseling!
All of this came to light in September of 2012. He sat me down and said I have something to tell you...I had an affair (then the next day he hopped a plane to Wales for a week to golf with buddies, I was left in utter shock). During that week I went into info gathering mode. I spoke to everyone and anyone trying to see if there was more to the story. Turns out there was a lot more. 15 years of whores and younger women.Some lon term...some one night stands. Many people were only to happy to tell me and others told but were (are still) in fear of retribution. I have kept the secrets safe. I just needed to know if it was a one time thing or not. Then I left.
Fast forward...........The road has been tough. I am working part time and I am a student (at 53 frikin years old) I still talk to my NH. Its hard when you have kids. My youngest has Aspergers and Tourettes so we do need to confer BUT lately it has been getting too comfortable again. We are talking too much...he is being kind again and loving and I am enjoying it. It's like old times...maybe he has changed and still loves me.....then my youngest tells me "daddy had a friend over last night...her name is Natalie" 23 year old waitress.....crap....will I ever learn??
It felt like September all over again......Time to try the NC!! So happy I am here though....I think I am in good company.

Jul 28 - 12PM
katie k
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Thanks

Jul 27 - 11PM
ziggy
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XOXO

Jul 28 - 12PM (Reply to #2)
fefe65
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Im sorry But it does sound