Aftermath exhaustion!

One of the things I've noticed since being out nine months now, is that I'm absolutely EXHAUSTED! I remember I spent a year trying to get out of it, psychologically. when it finally all went down, there was this relief, but incredible pain too. I kicked his ass to the curb. Why was I feeling this way?

My health was NOT good. I was suffering from PTSD in a major way. I could not function. My blood pressure was through the roof, my thyroid was off, my B12 counts were way deficient, I had found I had an std while with him, towards the end, I was an absolute MESS!

FF nine months. My blood pressure is perfect. I no longer drink alcohol because I'm not with him anymore and he was a huge alcoholic. My B12 counts are good, my vitamin D however, is severely deficient, my iron is a little low, my IBS is considerably better now. My health overall, is soooo much better than it was, even though I still deal with my fibromyalgia, I think, a direct result of a lifetime of pathologicals and stress.

But one thing that hasn't changed yet is the absolute EXHAUSTION I feel. This confuses me given how peaceful it is around here now. I think healing is very stressful but in a different way. It's not about the chaos of living day to day with a psychopath, it's the day to day cog/dis (which has also lessened significantly), learning about myself, hyperawareness, hyper vigilant (trust issues), extremely tight boundaries now....

I can't seem to sleep enough. It's as if the last ten years, I'm catching up on sleep as I got so little of it living in hell with him. I go to bed very early at night. I have a hard time getting up in the morning, just absolutely exhausted.

Have any of you encountered this, this far out? I've not asked my doctor about this, but I might next month when I go in. Just curious if the emotional stress of his being in my life, is contributing, as well as the stress of healing?

Thanks