ANGRY

That is how I feel. At least I am not crying. I am actually enraged all the time. I have done everything, started therapy, one on one with goldie, read read read and so on. Still pissed!!

Every time I start to feel better something seems to happen. Last week I went on my son's FB ( he is 12 I need to check on him) ex SN was blocked. So I thought. He had hacked my son's fb acct, unblocked himself. Then made a post from Ex NS act. To his daughter. It wasn't the post that bothered me, it was the time and place stamp. He wanted me to see he was at the OW or New GF house. So once again blocked and password changed. Then I removed my FB act. So he can't find me at all. I felt better.

Next day I get a call from a fellow co-worker. She is friends with this new supply woman. Tells me yes they are definitely together ( duh no shit) that this OW told her "yes we are together and we are very happy I am not playing the HS drama game".

Okay what drama game? I have been NC. Nothing from me to him. So he is playing the triangulation game. Big time since his last hoover almost 2 weeks ago when I spoke with him. I can only imagine what he is saying and lying to her about me! This makes me spin but not for long. ANGER!!!

So a few more days go by I'm feeling good again. Actually went out.

Bam, last night my bff tells me about the wake she went to over the weekend with her fiance ( ex N half brother) . The POS ex N/S actually showed up at the wake with his mom, daughter and you guessed it OW!!! Now I can understand mom and daughter it was a distant family member. But really the OW!!!!

My bff said she was never introduced no one was, that the ow was left in the corner. But he tried to speak with my BFF who simply walked away from him. My bff had no idea who the woman was and both her and his step brother thought it was sooooo pathetic of him to bring her!

Well DING DING!!! It was, because it was all personal a direct stab at me once again. I tried to think maybe he is just living his life and moving on. But really I know better. He hates my BFF and to go with the OW deliberately knowing she would be there and it would get back to me.

I am spinning no angry!!! I am so sick of the games. He moved on, has new supply. I have not reacted or given him anything as I know this is what he wants. I still won't.

Is he happy? Are they happy? They are in love? Why did he come back to me to say all that BS and more and more lies... ( example... me & the ow are not serious just a few dates) BULLSHIT!!!

Then I realize, yes it is personal, this is another hoover attempt there will be more, no he is not happy or in love. She is being brainwashed, played used and led on just as I was. He is a NARC Sociopath!! Nothing more. It is all a pathetic game to him. Bad news I know this is just the beginning and he will continue to hoover. And I am right. today I find out from friends at the gym who he is NOT friends with or even knows that he is sending them all FB friend requests! They LOL and didn't accept. They don't even know him.

Well I am off FB staying NC again!!! No Pain just anger anger anger!!!

Why can't he just disappear and leave me alone. I am not playing his game. I am off the ride!!!

Please any advice....