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Does this happen to anyone else?

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#1 Dec 3 - 4PM
smnp
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Does this happen to anyone else?

I've stopped counting Days of NC. It was one month on 12/1. My goal is not to count the days anymore, and maybe only count the months. Then not count the months. We'll see.

Anyway, we took my daughter to the mall today to visit Santa. I got home and the picture is GORGEOUS. Just a really fantastic picture and I'd like to use it for my cards this year.

I couldn't crop the picture to fit the format of the card I wanted. Seriously almost threw my POS laptop across the room. My daughter didn't nap, so she's cranky and I'm trying to get the freakin' picture to fit and it won't and before I know it, I'm yelling at a 3 year old, banging so hard on my computer keys that I really am afraid I'm going to break it, and crying like a baby.

Clearly, it's not about the picture. Stupid picture.

I'm mad at myself for losing it over something so stupid, and being mad that my 3 year old didn't nap and was whining. She's 3, it's 5pm-- the witching hour-- OF COURSE she's whining...

Do little things set anyone else off?

Dec 3 - 5PM
Gaia
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OH YES!

Most definitely , there is a lot of anger we all have to deal with, and finding healthy outlets can be challenging. I do most of my angry talk in the shower, I rant about how much I hate him, or things he done..then I watch all the thoughts go down the drain. I try to practice this anger session only in the shower, and thats it. So I dont go ballistic on unknowing strangers, or family members. Very hard to do. But , you have been through a lot and you have to give yourself a break. Its hard being as strong as we are, and those bastards could NEVER EVER handle the things we do. Love, SG XX
Dec 3 - 7PM (Reply to #5)
Journey
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"I do most of my angry talk

"I do most of my angry talk in the shower, I rant about how much I hate him, or things he done..then I watch all the thoughts go down the drain" LOVE that! I've been feeling more anger lately... I just might have to start showering more often :)

Journey on...

Dec 3 - 8PM (Reply to #7)
Marlinmom
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SHOWER POWER

Me too, loved the idea of watching the thoughts go down the drain. I've found myself taking showers every time I interact with my soon to be Ex. It's like the goofy is sticky stuff I needed to get OFF.
Dec 3 - 7PM (Reply to #6)
heritage
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Journey I do the same thing!

Journey I do the same thing! As the hot water is running down my back I say a lot out loud to him, about him, etc. And every night I pray to God to wash away my enemy. It's 10 months and still full of anger. I just want it to all go away!
Dec 3 - 5PM
peaches
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Grump

Yes. I am irritable. I want to enjoy the holiday festivities with family and I'm obsessing about some creepy bastard who I am fortunate to have out out my life. I still count the days, the minutes of nc. 2 1/2 days now. I'm glad you ended up with a lovely picture of your little cutie. It's hard to be a Mom when you have a broken heart. Happy Holidays.
Dec 3 - 5PM
Victim-no-more
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Yes I can get pretty

Yes I can get pretty irritable too. My entire day today I have been very crabby, and I know its narc related.
Dec 3 - 10PM (Reply to #2)
walking_on_sunshine
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Im happy to be free

I actually feel like a prisoner who was given freedom. I find myself singing and humming the most silly uplifting songs, even in the store and on the bus I find I'm humming peacefully to myself. I also find I'm laughing now at random silly things. I'm giggling a lot at funny posts and things online, laughing at satirical cartoons and tv shows. Im just really happy to have autonomy. My irritability was totally unbareable when I was with him, but now his misery cloud is drifting away from me and I'm starting to feel a little peace and sunshine.