Feel crappy and insecure after making 1.5 years recovery

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#1 Apr 1 - 3AM
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Feel crappy and insecure after making 1.5 years recovery

After making a sure and steady recovery since I was abused by my narc 1.5 years ago, I feel crappy and insecure.

A lot has been happening in my life recently and I feel under pressure from work.
Work has been putting pressure on me to be tied into a 5 year course or face being out of work after 1 year. I am 27 and after having to try and please my dad and earn his approval by completing a bachelors degree a masters degree and half a phd, I need a break. I was (before work put pressure on me) happy earning money and living my life to the full. It was so difficult for me to say no to my boss...even if it meant sacrificing 5 years of my life to hard work...at the end of the 5 years there is no guarentee of stable work as things change so fast in today's economy...they could just cut my job if they wanted to.

To add to this pressure, I tried to tell my fiance's parents my problem. I said it was hard and they just said I was too old to be completing courses and that at 27 I should be thinking of settling down and having children! I was so hurt by this. I felt like I turned to them for validation and help and all I got was judgement and insult!

I feel like everyone wants a piece of me and it is so hard to cling on to yourself. Words of wisdom would be welcome.

Apr 2 - 9AM
Goldie
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Hi Random

Apr 1 - 10AM
Willow
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Hi randomflag: Janie's words

Apr 1 - 8AM
Hunter
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Sounds to me like you're

Apr 1 - 8AM
Portia
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Nothing is Guaranteed

Apr 1 - 5AM
Peeks
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Pressure is a funny thing Random Flag,

Apr 1 - 8AM (Reply to #2)
randomflag
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Thank you so much for your

Apr 2 - 9PM (Reply to #3)
K_S
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Take the break