Feeling Blah

I accidentally posted this on someone's thread and didn't mean to so I reposting

I'm not trying to be a Scrooge but these upcoming holidays are just making me so blah........overall, I was doing pretty good, it's just been the last week or so I've been feeling like poo. I can say that I am not directly thinking about or reminiscing about my past relationship with the weirdo, but maybe it's subconscious now. I can't really say for sure but either way, it kinda sucks. So I'm gonna write about some good things, some positives and would like to hear some positives from other members........I guess it really is the time of year to reflect on how fortunate we are and I'm so tired of feeling/thinking about what I "lost" because I didn't really lose anything worth having to begin with.

So some things I am grateful for:

I was given another day
I'm healthy and my son is healthy
(although we both have some emotional issues we're working on)
I have friends that love and accept me for me and I am good enough for them
I have friends that listen and are there when I need them
I'm starting to be able to be there for my friends once again
I have necessities such as housing and food
It snowed a little today (sounds silly but I haven't seen snow since being with the ex)
The staff @ my son's school are very supportive
I'm feeling more worthy and my self esteem is slowly returning
I'm smiling and laughing authentically again and not just putting on a front
I'm feeling confident again about finding work
I'm feeling less down most days
I'm feeling like my head is NOT gonna explode
I've stopped clenching my jaw for the most part-this started more than a year ago
I'm grateful for finding this site and everyone on it
I'm grateful everyone on this site found this site
I'm grateful for the new friends I have found

Well, that's my grateful list, I'm sure there's much more that I could add to it but for now, that's good.

In any case, I'd like to hear some positives everyone else is finding, feeling and having........I'm hoping it will drive away these holiday blahs for me and maybe for anyone else having them. It's amazing how we forget how much there is to appreciate in life when we're caught in the midst of depression, CD, abuse, fear, anxiety and so on. And these were all things that I was always grateful for before the Ex............I just lost touch being too focused on him that I lost focus on me and everything else that I always found important in my life.

Thanx for listening..........