Fell into a Narc trap!
Fell into a Narc trap!
I wonder when I'll ever learn to see the traps my Narc sets for me??? Kiwi asked me tonight where were my Narc eyes! LOL!! I guess my Narc eyes are BLIND!
I was doing some things around the house and walked over to pick up my phone and he had called 5 times and sent a text message that said CALL ME! YES I CALLED HIM! Why?? Because stupid me thought something was wrong! He never calls at night because the GF is always with him!!! When I called him back he wouldn't answer!!! He called me back in about 30 minutes and what he was calling about was STUPID! It was nothing! I thought somebody had died for him to be calling so late and calling 5 times in a row! I know......even if somebody had died it's not my problem!! I get that now but I can not for the life of me figure out how to stop the knee jerk reaction I have when it comes to him!!!! It just makes me sick!! The conversation ended in a fight (of course) with me cussing and screaming and telling him what a piece of shit he is! While I'm cussing him he's telling me how much he loves me and he wishes I was with him! GAG!!!!! That made me even more mad which turned into another fight until I finally just hung up on him. (thank you Kiwi for reality check and making me see that I could just HANG UP THE STUPID PHONE!)
I have got to realize that this idiot is capable of anything! He'll use whatever it takes to bait me into a trap and pounce on me! As soon as I saw where he called I sent a SOS text message to help me through. I knew it would blow up and it did! I want to stop the way I react when it comes to him. I'm trying so hard but it's almost like a habit!! It's natural for me to jump in to see what is wrong. It's just sick! When I do end up talking to him my mouth and temper takes over and I lose it. It's such a vicious cycle. How blind and hard headed can one person be???
My question is how do you stop the habits you created when you were with the Narc?? My reaction to him is so strange! I hate his freaking guts but when I thought something was wrong I freaked out! It's not my place anymore to freak out and fix things! So sick of MY insanity! I think he's finally put me over the edge and now I'm crazy too!
Thanks for listening again!
Sara
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