Getting past those little temptations!!!

Bless you Kiwi, you will get this done today. Here are some words of wisdom for you! When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, let it be. And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me, speaking words of wisdom, let it be. Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be. Whisper words of wisdom, let it be. And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree, there will be an answer, let it be. For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see, there will be an answer. let it be. Let it be, let it be, ..... And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me, shine until tomorrow, let it be. I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, let it be. Let it be, let it be, ..... Let it be what it is and don't try to make it into something it isn't. It is dead to you now, no need to prove it again and again. ds

I was doing really well....feeling like there was an end to the madness. And I engaged the beast again. It's SO not worth it. He's being nice now...not in the way that he wants a relationship....but in the "buddy buddy" way your Narc is doing. It has totally screwed up almost 2 months of NC. You can't get past it being in contact with these guys. It takes you all the way back to square one. And I'm not enjoying it. I'm not beating myself up for engaging the interaction because I'm only human, but I DO realize that I'm digging my own grave by being friends with him. It doesn't work. I've been sitting in front of my computer crying....again. It's not worth it. Block him if you can. Don't do what I did...let me be a living example of what you should NOT do. Stay strong. It hurts more when you respond.

You have to want to not hear from him ever again in order to succeed. Like Hunter says, block him, change your number, your email address. Everything............ Until that happens, you will continue to be met with temptation. Wish I had more wisdom to share with you.

It`s no different to the first day not smoking. You think you´re doing fine, and then some little thing annoys you, or you smell someone else smoking, and before you know where you are you`re going up the wall longing for just "one little shot". Answering, getting a reaction YOU initiated, that`s the shot. And it`s the shot that keeps you addicted. Take a bath. Run round the garden naked. Go into the woods and howl like a wolf. Imagine your pillow is him, and take a baseball bat to it. BUT DO NOT CALL HIM. And do not respond if he calls you. It`s called cold turkey, and any addict will tell you it`s sheer hell. But it is the ONLY way to get clean. Nothing else helps. After day one comes day two, and after day two, day three. And every day without a shot, you are detoxing - healing. No shots, Kiwi! Keep going strong! Hugs Tigerlily

Change your number!! Block him! It's not the answer you want to hear but it is the only answer!! hunter