He pushed me over the edge

For sure. oh man I know how that feels. sorry that you are feeling that way. wow, yeah I had the cops called on me NOT even cuz I was going crazy. just cause i threatened to expose how he was to his family. And so that was couple days before. no idea and he called cops on me out of the blue. Well few days after that i showed him crazy. went to his house i went berserk then threw the phone at him and said here call the police you jerk after I punched him a few times. You know what though? nothing really gets accomplished out of this. He will continue to act all smug and i know u probably want to knock the shit out of him but you gotta to be careful because you don't want to wind up in jail. really it is NC cuz everytime i have talked to Narc boy i feel like strangling him. Considering everything he's done to you. You don't want to end up in the slammer to. The revenge is not letting him into your life anymore. He will continue to be anyway the same prick he will always be. but quite certainly karma will catch up to him one day... sending you my love

The best revenge is NC. No longer can they mess with our minds that way and they know it and it eats at them because they no longer have control. Walking away and pretending they don't exist anymore than a bug on the ground that you can't take the time to notice is the best feeling in the world. Sorry, but he didn't make you do it. I know I've done some crazy stuff too and they do push us over the edge. But we still have to own up to the things we do. Those assholes always look smug and arrogant and superior!!!!! Mine has done every lousy low thing to me. Anything to kill my dignity but I refuse to let him destroy me. I go out and I'm making friends. It sucks to be him, he no longer has control over me, I refuse to even acknowledge that he's alive. And best of all he can't destroy me, and I'm happy which is the best revenge of all. Keep your head up. Forgive and Forget. Forgive him for being as asshole and forget that he's alive.

He talks out of both sides of his mouth. The Tin Man knows he doesn't have a heart. And he knows your not really crazy. He is very aware that it is him that makes you act crazy. And that's what he gets off on. Believe me. They are never confused.

Hey, skb. ...just have to agree that your behavior makes sense considering your situation. We can only do the best we can do with what we have available to us on any given day. I've been the psycho woman, too, and also grateful for no charges. :) It may be a silly addition, but venting (and, boy, I imagine you have a lot to vent about if your experience is even remotely related to those of most who post here) is good for your blood pressure. ;) Peace and strength to you!

Don't blame yourself, Skb. You're right to think that his master manipulation had everything to do with the "crazy" way you acted. Seriously, I think these people make us act crazy. I did things when feeling desperate with him that I couldn't even fathom doing ever, like really lowering myself and begging and such. And now that I think about it, I don't think he even saw me, or even had normal empathy for me as a person, much less as a woman he loved and cared for, as he was supposed to do, and gave me the 'image' of doing (hence my cognitive dissonance even still). Reading things like this just enforces that these entities have serious mind/heart/emotion messing-up skills, and will use it without heart. Don't be down on yourself, just keep moving forward...hugs to you Skb

This is why we are here.. This is why the members need to listen..I don't know the result of your behavior but I'm hoping all that comes of it ..is that you appear crazy.. Yes.. He pushed you over the edge.. .. But you didnt fall completely off the cliff.. Walking away is winning.. Letting the OW have him is a gold star.. You are successful woman.. This poor behavior is over a Man..a piece of garbage man at that.. I posted early.. Getting away from a Man that causes behavior like this requires work.. Hard work.. The real problem here is not about the man.. Its how you arrived in this toxic relationship in the first place.. There is always a solution to any problem.. If you fuck up ..fix it.. Are you ready? Hunter PS what he thinks ( if he even as a brain) doesn't matter..

I acted out with my exnarc, raging, hit him, stalk him (I thought I was still his girlfriend), crying, call him everything I could think of. I never have acted this way with anyone before. I've always been able to sit and talk situations out. Yea, I do feel ashamed of this behavior. I too was lied to from the very begining. I'm at my 10 day of nc. I know however he tiggered deep issues within myself, that I didn't know I had. Forgive yourself, this was just one experience in your life where you were out-of-control, it does not define who you are as a person. It's is not defeat, you are not like a dog walking with your tail between your legs. What I understand the narc doesn't care what you are feeling about yourself. So let it go, it is not who you are. He didn't win, he will never win, he will always live a disorder life. You however, have won, he's out of your life.