Heartless

Just a thought.. if you could say or do just one thing to try and make sense of it all what would it be? I thought about it. If he was standing in front of me right now I would want to shake him hoping that he has been in some kind of sleep and needs waking up. He doesn't care. He has no feelings for me. I wonder if he even has feelings at all..he is like a robot but always acted like I hurt him so badly. Isn't that funny..really. WTF?
He flirted with so many woman and a few in particular seemed very cosy with him. And her . OW.. how could she not be disturbed by that ? maybe it's just me ? But if I am not number one in a mans life then he I sure am not going to be any other number in his sum total. Fuck that. I had a few too many drinks I think. And that is precisely why. I am fucking tired of thinking. He is not my problem I am my problem. But apart from him.. I don't have any problems.. lol