How is NC Practiced When He's Not Contacting Me?

Hi everyone,

I'm new. I don't have to worry (at least for the last 3 months I haven't) because he has a new supply and he's with her. He has not tried to contact me since end of July. He's made it very clear he wants nothing to do with me. Yes, count my blessings, I know.

How does one muster up the courage to delete the old texts, photos and emails? We shared 3 years together. We spent many "happy" times together (it wasn't all bad, just when we fought... ha ha). It's hard to throw those photos out, the gifts out. I did box all the gifts up. What about the presents he gave to my child? I have a young child.

How do you get the courage to toss stuff out permanently? And I don't deliver them to his house, right? That would just feed his ego. He hates me I feel; I don't know he'll ever come back. He trashed my name to his family (I didn't do anything... they used to love me); but they told me I was no longer welcome at their home anymore. I ran into his mom at my child's school (her grandkids attend there) and she was very very nice to me.

What the heck?

And how do you get thru the days immediately following you throwing everything out? Any suggestions on how to survive the pain? I tend to get suicidal thoughts and I don't want to go there.

Thanks!