i had a disturbing dream last night
i had a disturbing dream last night
I had a very disturbing dream last night.I had taken a little more of my anti-anxiety meds than i was used to,so that might be it, but this was the first time dreaming of my bf with another woman.
It was a girl i used to know more than 20 years ago. She was really tough,and loud. Infact, she had a meanstreak. And she is way younger than me.and as it is, im 14 yrs younger than my bf.....she is not his type either i dont think.But in the dream, she was coming onto him,and i got the impression that they had been together before and she was deciding to take him back. He was so happy with her,he couldnt stop smiling. It was horrible.
Like i said, she was a really tough person.Maybe i feel like if i wouldnt have been so sweet to him, or if i would have been more confindent, he would have liked me more and treated me better. I am the one that has pretty much left him,but there was nothing to leave...he was no more attracted to me than he was to a piece of cardboard! He hasnt even bothered trying to make things right,but continues to say he loves me,like a parrot.(and with a flat voice to top it off). It means no more to me than if a parrot was saying it,cause his behavior screams "you're my last priority!"
I dont know why im saying all this...just venting.
Parrot
i figured out why it was her of all ppl
Stop what iffing
indiff...I'm gonna go all
spinning
"His flat affect is because he's an empty shell"
I know, indiff...
spinning
Mission accomplished
"find the things that make you happy"
That really stinks..........
"I usually feel totally cheated if I have a dream with my N ...