I had to post twice. This man is crazy!

Well, I'll just briefly explain myself. I'm 23. I'm about to go back to shcool, again....and to sum it up...I looooooooooooooove men of power and of age. I'll only mention two guys, one is pretty irrelevant, but he fits in.

So... My second older guy is 56 (now) at the time, he was 54. We talked on and off for two years. He's a Judge, a traffic court Judge. Blah, blah. He took my virginity. Ruined me. It was such a long story with him....But, he's not the issue...

So, I mentioned that I love older men, I really do. I guess the only reason I really like Judges is because I want to become one myself. So, after I pretty much broke up with the above mentioned guy, I found myself talking to another Judge. A Criminal Court Judge. At first, it was cool...but...I promise this story gets pretty pathetic. I actually emailed him on FB, I worked in the same building as he did, and I thought he worked on my hall...he was 6 floors up...anyway....He's a nice looking guy..cute, smart, now he's 56...I like them older...and COCKY AS HELL....So....keep this in mind,..We've never, EVER, been on a date...it's been a phone thing for a year and a half...seriously..

It started off as him telling me about himself...complimenting me...saying he can't believe I let that traffic court Judge mess with me and so forth. This guy is a criminal court Judge, so, he feels pretty superiour. Anyway....The first couple of months (on the phone) it was "baby this...baby that"..."I wanna see you" and so forth. Claimed he respected me because of my age. I'm 23 versus his 56...So, I went off to school to Atlanta from Memphis because I was upset with the first Judge..he's acutually not too narcissistic at all..Anyway...so....this second Judge claimed he was coming to ATL to see me..never did..I even flew home a couple of times to see him and he knew it. Never saw me. Those first few months on the phone were great...then...as the need for me wanting to see him grew strong, I'd write him emails claiming I wanted to see him....nothing....I'd get mad and tell him i was done...We'd end up talking back a week or so later...because I inititiated contact,first. He'd pretty much blame me for everything...I've done that with him about 10 times now, over a span of a year and a half. So, months went on...it quickly became about him..I'd never contact him first, he'd always call when he get out of court...ask me about my day, which was brief...and literally would talk about hisself for over an hour. Talk about court and so forth..who he put in jail....all that ole' mess...So...it became annoying..but I kept listening...he was telling me how he wanted marriage, another kid...and I wanted to start that with him...I've only seen this man in court..NO FURTHER....Ever..He's only said he's cared about me once...then claimed he cared about himself, too. I send him pics, which he never responds too, tell him that I need him and care about him, he never responds too....It's like...all I do is feed his ego...Everytime I tell him that I want to see him, he cringes....I can just see it over the phone...never seen him in person, so, that's what I have to live by. I thought it was because he has kids my age, afraid of what people may say in public...who knows....I won't lie..I've been through an emotional rollercoaster with this man...for over a year..I've sent many multiliple messages claiming that I was done..no response....We would start back talking though...So..recently...he sent me a text because I told him I needed more..once again....He replied back the next day and told me that he got my text. It was a continuing thesis and same story line. Told me I should move forward because he's not living up to my expectations and or demands. Said he never meant to cause me any pain. This jerk would literally call me everyday after court..I'm 23....you're 56...you have no one else to talk too??? No friends??? You just want to tell me about your day becaause you know I'd fill your ego? Claim he changed laws...this and that...he's better than any Judge...crazy thing is..he never says is...but you don't need to have that much sense to understand he's bragging on himself. Hell, he ever claimed that he was narcissistic. I didn't know what it was. I loooked it up not too long ago and he fit the description Too a T. Loser. Anyway...so...after him telling me I should move forward....because I told him I needed more...I sent him maybe 8 texts in a span of a week....emotions up and down...never anything badl..telling him I wanted him...then...saying I would find a man that wanted me...you know...the emotional rollerocaster..so...I said..."I know what will make this motherfucker respond.." I sent him a text asking If I could still come to his courtroom because I refused to go to any other courtroom. I won't lie, he knows his shit when it comes to him being a Judge. He told me that he I could come to his court anytime I wanted, but he was done with drama. So, I've caused drama because I told him I needed more? And he tells me to move forward? What the hell. Funny, he replies to the only thing he knows...law....He'd bring up women who wanted him..try and make me jealous, which it did....I don't think I ever made him jealous with men that wanted me. I was so there for him. I sat in his courtroom..waiting for him to text me to tell me to come into his chambers..and talk..simply talk..never happened....He knew this whole time I wasn;t talking to any other man but him. He knew it. So...two days ago..I sent him a text claiming that I can't imagine him with someone else...told him I was willing to wait until he was ready to see me...being dumb pretty much..All I did was feed his ego...my day didn't matter to him...importany thing we should have talked about were irrelevant...I won't lie though....I'm ACTUALLY done texting him. Yes, I want a response...Thing is, I'd never text back...I just want him to understand what it feels like to get ignored. To sum it up...
You're a 56 year old man...I'm 23....you talked to me every single day..I never called you...you are a man of importance, but you'e calling me, because I fed your ego....never told me I was pretty...told me you cared about me only once...I know every single thing about your childhood, family and so forth...you don't know shit about me....but you're willing to cut that off because I told you I needed more...a day later...you told me to move forward...and after the many emotional rollercoaster texts I sent you...the last one...about me coming to your courtroom is the one you replied too....serious???I'm not bragging, but this man pretty much knows I can get anyone I want..I'm not bad on the eyes....I won't lie...I like his old ballsack,lol...but...he's just completely telling me it's over? I actually won't text him...but does he sound like he's the one to just text out the blue?

I want a reply so I can ignore the hell out of him..crazy..but I really do.