I saw right through him..but im still hurting
I saw right through him..but im still hurting
3 months into our 3 year relationship i knew something about him was wrong. when he raged on me the first time..i knew it was wrong..i knew i had done nothing, yet i brushed it to the side as if it were normal bcuz i grew up with 2 abusive parents (they fought eachother all the time)HOWEVER after that first rage i began to anylize his every word/movement and i called him out on his B.S. every time.
When things were good between he & I it was wonderful, he did many great things for me but i couldnt fight off the weird feeling in my gut telling me that it was all Fake! (i felt ashamed for feeling like it was fake) 2 years into the relationship i still had these feelings...they would not let up.
After 3 years i got tired of his raging antics and put him out on the street with no place to go, he had no money i felt really bad about doing that so i let him back the next day.. but did that stop him from shouting like a maniac?..Nope so back on the street he went (4X) why it took me so long to get rid of him i think is because of my upbringing.
Its been a year since Ive last seen him and here I am..still going through the same hurt and pain as many others here, even though i was strong enough to know he was toxic and smart enough to eventually get rid of him I still feel very weak lost and confused..i still find myself crying and hurting, He replaced me with OW soon after i went NC. He doest Hoover me but i know he hoovered his ex while we were together. These people will Devistate your life and leave you in pain no matter how smart,strong,successful you are!
Freestacy, if you're a year
ItsFinallytime and Willow- great advice!
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