I'm beginning to think maybe I am crazy???

Yesterday the Narc called me at work and I snapped. I was so PISSED that I hunted him down to deal with him face to face. He keeps talking to my kids at work and I have told him a billion times to stay away from them. I ripped him to pieces and he put his pathetic shocked face on and said "he was only trying to help"! I was shaking so hard I thought I'd have a heart attack. I told him we didn't need his f-ing help and to leave us alone. He laughed and said OK...fine. When he laughed I really snapped. I FINALLY went to his boss. I told his boss I couldn't take another minute of his harassment and if he didn't do something to stop it immediately I would go over his head to Sr Management. I took his boss an email to me from the Narc that was VERY damaging. In the email The Narc told me to quit turning my back to him every time I saw him and to quit ignoring him. In one part of the email he said at least when I turned my back he still got to look at my fine ass! Sexual harassment in federal government email! :) IDIOT! His boss was FURIOUS! I don't know if he will lose his job or not and I don't care anymore. I FINALLY stood up for myself and it felt GREAT!

When I left work and things got quiet that is when the fear and regret filled my entire body. I started to question everything I have done for the past 4 years. Maybe I am too sensitive. Maybe I am to emotional??? Maybe he was just trying to help and because of our past I don't trust it but I over-reacted??? Maybe I shouldn't have said anything? Maybe he will make everybody think that I AM THE CRAZY ONE?? Maybe I am the crazy one? I sure FEEL LIKE THE CRAZY ONE!!!!!

I can't win no matter what I do. I reported him at work FINALLY and I don't feel any better. I'm scared of what he will do or say. I know he's telling anybody that will listen that I'm a lunatic. I really think I am. He's pushed me all the way over the edge to CRAZY!!!!!! I give up. Nothing makes the pain go away. NOTHING!!!!!!!