I'm questioning...do I want too much. Am I high maintenance?
I'm questioning...do I want too much. Am I high maintenance?
I'm really questioning myself now. Do I ask too much? I look at the movies and see a true gentleman and wonder if that's just a fairy tale? Did I watch too many soap operas? Am I high maintenance? I wanted to be treated well. Treated with respect but I also want the man that will show up for no reason with flowers and just look over and tell me I'm beautiful and he loves me. These are things I never received from the N but I don't have a lot of dating experience to know. I have watched a lot of soaps (Days of our Lives) and wonder if I'm not being realistic now.
Or do I love this drama? Do I love the chase? I'm 39 and was married 11 years. That ended when I was 31 and I have dated only a few men since. I'm not ugly and I know I'm attractive....that's arrogant too right? I'm questioning everything. I have been told my a counselor I have zero self confidence but yet I know I'm attractive but it's the inside I have no confidence. This is all weird and twisted and I'm confused.
Why do I feel the N is my last hope? That I don't think I can do better?
Am I too needy to want affection and love and a little attention? Is that way over board?
I don't know what normal really is in my head because my ex husband is gay and didn't tell me until our son was born after 11 years marriage. I'm very confused on what normal is but he was my best friend.
My head is spinning and I feel very confused.
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HAPPY!!!!!!!
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