It's Ho-Down Tuesday (again)
It's Ho-Down Tuesday (again)
That's what my friend calls Tuesday nights for me b/c it is the day of the week where I will encounter 2 of the ho's that my N slept with either during or (definitely) towards the end of our relationship at the gym where I work (it's called Ho-down Tues b/c these 2 particular tramps don't really work out at all at the gym and spend most of their time lying on top of their work-out benches).
I know that many of you feel like it's unfair to bash the OW (plural x20+ in my case b/c of my N's serial and multiple affairs). I guess I feel differently in my situation, b/c I know or have seen the women that he has ef'fed and they are easy (pubcrawlers, big hair, lots of make-up, tight clothes and say things on their FB/my space pages like, "I am 22 years old (my N is approaching his mid-60's) and I'd like to have tea with a man older than 45 (WTF??)," openly show pornographic pics of themselves to men (including to my N) at the gym, sleep with anything with a pulse (gotta love this--one ho even told my friend that she would go to a dark place where and she and my N would eff, but she didn't want to give him her address--once again, WTF??), and party and get wasted all the time (I'm not making this stuff up--this is what they say about themselves)). I am the complete opposite of this--I was faithful to the N, I work hard, got my education, and do the things that normal people do. I have nothing to be jealous of, but I feel hatred towards them nonetheless.
It has been a little over 3 months of NC. I am a very visual, creative, and imaginative person so I can totally see my N and these b*tches together. I can't leave the gym for employment-related reasons and am still struggling with these images in my head. I resent these ho's for giving the rest of us good women a bad name, for sleeping with someone that I cared deeply for that they couldn't give a rat's a** about...yes, I know that they are all supply, and fyi, he has since discarded them all. Nonetheless, it still hurts really badly, and I don't know what to do about my pain and anger. The only good thing to come out of this is that I work out harder in their presence, to get my emotional energy out and these two ho's are taking notice of me b/c I am thinner, healthier and in much better condition than them even though I am older than them (they do not know about my relationship with my N). How and when will I be over this and how did/do you deal with this?
Dear sisters in recovery....
Thx for clarifying Layla
Janie I just love that article!
Good idea Layla
Read
These so called "ho's" have
Good point Sparrow.
And you really see yourself
I find it all disturbing
Well said!
yee haw