money morals and narcissists

I want to say thank you to everyone here for helping me over the past several days. I had contact with my ex N. I actually only recently realized that nc means no contact. I thought lots of folks were from nc and go ahead and laugh 'cause if you are like me you need some laughter.
I came onto the site the other day and was so upset that he had contacted me. Upsetting me most was that he offered me money for sex and literally wrote it on paper telling me he would pay and that way I could leave my heart out of it. He asked me to consider if I would be able to compartmentalize my feelings.
So, when I came on to the site, shaking and crying, and feeling like dying, literally, I really didn't think you guys could help me.
I was surprised. You helped me and I did block my email and I did change my phone.
I know I am not out of the woods by any means. I know the pain will get strong one day and it will hurt. I wish I didn't know this but I do.
For now I am okay. For now.
When I am not I will come here again. I will ask for help again.
I wrote on my blog instead of writing to him, the latter of which causes me to get really sick.
I wrote a blog on money and morals. It isn't great journalism but just another blog. It is from my heart though and you guys inspired it so I wanted to share it.
thank you again for your help!
with gratitude, calamity gina
If you like you can read my entry, Money and morals on my blog,
http://dogkisses.wordpress.com/2009/09/27/money-and-morals/