New- Just a few weeks out:

Hello everyone -

My therapist suggested this site. I just left after three years. I'm very scared of him finding out I'm posting this but the likelihood is minimal. Unless his ex-wife is on here for support too.

For a long time I benefited from his impulsive, selfish, reckless and obsessive behavior. Until I didn't. Then my soul was crushed every day for the better part of a year. Not only lying, but actually turning on a dime on me in fits of anger, manipulation and what seemed to be actual pleasure in causing me to emotionally suffer... making me beg him for forgiveness.

The depths I sunk to were so difficult to describe that I almost started enjoying the lows, the circling of the drain, the degradation.

None of his friends would ever believe me. In fact few know about me even though for years he was in touch EVERY day, all day and all night.

So I guess I'm just here to be heard. Not to be a weeping woman, not to be a victim... but for someone to tell me I'm not crazy.