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The New Year's Kiss.....UGH!!!!!!

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#1 Dec 30 - 8AM
janemarie
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The New Year's Kiss.....UGH!!!!!!

I woke up soooo angry today....I guess seeing the exN's son set me back....

Im so mad and angry, I feel sorry for myself...my house is a mess...my bills have been thrown aside, so disorganized...Im so overwhelmed...and I have NO energy to accomplish anything
The New Year crap is KILLING me!!! I need it to be over!! I just want to crawl in a hole!!!

That fu---- mid-night kiss with the OW!!!! UGH!! I dont even know why I feel this way bacause ours last year was nothing to brag about....it's just the whole idea of wondering what the new year will bring with each other after the kiss....the excitement...the dreams...(ALL THAT NEVER CAME TRUE) What is their dream and wonder going to be? Why should I fu----care??? They are both going to end up miserable!!!! I truely know that!! I have to believe it!! But right now Im too tired...and just want to dig a hole and sleep!!!!!

Dec 31 - 1AM
blueworld
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at midnight tomorrow

it would be officially three years i release it back to the source
Dec 31 - 1AM
blueworld
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jane

hows this one for you when xn asked to be my bf three years ago it was at midnight on new years eve, while we were in my room on my bed being intimate he looked me in the eyes and kissed my lips and said i love you baby i want to be your boyfriend exclusively he has literally since then ruined every holiday for me i hated christmas this year and now we have fracking new years around the corner and then oh yeah valentines day fucking wonderful not only that the ass clown as i have already posted text two of my flipping freinds hope you had a good christmas text mf it is unreal who the hell does he even think he is right>? new years resulotion i come first
Dec 30 - 10AM
janemarie
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To all of you!!!! Your

To all of you!!!! Your perspective is just enough to slap me upside the head. I know thinking this way is ridiculous....My emotions are totally getting the best of me today... But as one of you said...the exN was a horrible kisser so she can have him and his tongue that he doesnt know what to do with. Layla....HE CAN KISS MY ASS LMAO!!!! Beautiful comment!! Sparrow...I truely love your warmth and compassion...what a wonderful idea!!! And what an amazing daughter you have raised..!!!! Hunter....as always...you are bluntly to the point..kiss of freakin death!!!!!!! Love to all of you!!! xoxo janemarie
Dec 30 - 9AM
Run4it
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Janemarie

I don't know where you live but if the weather is anywhere near half way decent, you need to get outside and walk today, even if it is just for 30 minutes. New Years is just another day in our lives and certainly not the most important one. I can't even remember last years event so I'm sure there was no midnight kiss as my N went to bed at 8:30 every night !!! Your mind is just wrapped around all this with obsessive thinking. I do the same thing. It makes you feel crazy and out of control. Life can be good again, just one little bit at a time. Go walk..... much love to you and I'm sending out prayers for a much different 2012 for all of us hurting here.
Dec 30 - 9AM (Reply to #11)
Run4it
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and for the record....

My Ex N was a mediocre kisser.....
Dec 30 - 8AM
Sparrow
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Kiss yourself this New Years

Kiss yourself this New Years Eve! That's what I plan to do......I am going to apply red lipstick right before midnight (I never wear red but it's the most prominent of colors) and I am going to kiss my mirror. I will keep that kiss there for the entire year, and be reminded of who really counts in the whole scheme of things. This year, I have "me" and that is a beautiful thing. There is no one I would rather kiss more at the stroke of midnight! It's about time I make me first.......took almost 50 years, but darn it, I did it! As far as the OW is concerned........like Hunter says "the kiss of death" be thankful your out, and that he found a replacement. That in itself is worth celebrating!
Dec 30 - 10AM (Reply to #7)
Lisa87
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Love it Sparrow!!

Same age, same motto, I'm almost 50 too (48) and 2012 is going to be all about me and what I want. I said that to ExN during one of his hoovers......you can't give me what I want and what I need... so see ya! I want someone that wants ME and loves ME!! I'm spending NY Eve at a good friend's party and will surround myself with fun, happy genuine people and not only kiss myself but my friends and maybe everyone else!! I had a date to the party and canceled on him, I don't want to have to pretend I like him more than a friend as I heard he is smitten (and well, I'm not). Here's to a healthy happy 2012 all about us!! Hugs, Lisa
Dec 30 - 10AM (Reply to #8)
Sparrow
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I bought a pretty little

I bought a pretty little compact mirror, and I will carry it in my handbag all year long, with that kiss.....I wanted to clarify that so people didn't picture my bathroom mirror with lip prints on it for a year! LOL Besides........what's in a kiss, really? Look around you, on New Years, and watch everyone kiss. If I had a dime for every kiss I ever gave out at the stroke of midnight, well, I would be rich by now. :) Resolve yourself to loving you.....love others of course....but include yourself. Know your worth, is what I always say. My daughter said to me the other day "If you focus on what you left behind, you will never be able to see what lies ahead" I will carry her words with me on NYE and every day after that. She rocks! And she is so right!
Dec 30 - 10AM (Reply to #9)
Lisa87
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Ditto! Lucky to have

Ditto! Lucky to have wonderful loving friends and family and especially my 2 wonderful boys...unconditional, non-toxic love!!
Dec 30 - 9AM (Reply to #6)
Anonymus
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wow...

you are one amazing person!!! Wish I could meet you and hang out!!
Dec 30 - 8AM (Reply to #5)
Goldie
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I LOVE this Sparrow

I am going to do this as well this is great. A kiss for ME!!! Love it. God bless, Goldie
Dec 30 - 8AM (Reply to #4)
Layla
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So true Sparrow..........

I'd rather kiss myself too.......... ..........my abuser can come kiss my ass while I donkey kick him....would that be "contact"?? Heheheheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! love~ Layla
Dec 30 - 8AM
Layla
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The real question is..........

What's YOUR "dream and wonder" going to be? love~ Layla
Dec 30 - 8AM
Hunter
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OW and that New Years

OW and that New Years kiss?? It's her Kiss of Death!! Hunter