opening my life up to you
opening my life up to you
for those of you still in this pain and maybe those who have remained in contact i encourage you before this new year to write everything you can about what you remember happened to you ..... it has helped me greatly and the amount that comes out is ...well here is mine
and its long...maybe you find the same events?
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1.grabbing me by my throat and throwing me into the kitchen sink at his dads spraying me with the capri sun he was holding
2. Grabbing my hands or fingers crushing them to get out of my hand whatever i was holding on to..cell phone..keys..my ring..whatever
3 always demanding privacy and respect
4. He violently threw me on the floor, bed, couch..or just threw me. backing me into corners..even the shower
5. Grabbing me one handed by the throat and squeezing me hard
6. Was not allowed a outside circle of friends though he had that
7.lying to the cops everytime
8 compulsive lying to his parents, friends and co workers and strangers all the time
9. Mocking my pain or fear
10throwing and kicking my cat because she was on the dresser
11. him grabbing jasmine as she was alseep in her crate choking her and throwing her into the wall.
12. Using the words "Riggght" "Your the one who.." "You always" "You Never" "I Don't do this to anyone but you" "Your the only one I get angry at" "you are the one who needs counseling" "I'm not lying" "Trust me" "your never going to trust me"
13. Cunt, Bitch, Whore, Old,Wrinkly, Liar, Cheater, Abuser, Manipulator
14. Him coming into the bedroom part of the motel in vegas and grabbing me by my throat trying to get my phone from me choking me and grabbing my face
15. When he would hurt me he would hurt himself with either my arms, knees or grab a object and hit himself in the head
16. Him grabbing a knife going into the bathroom like he is going to kill himself, or grabbing it and playing with it in front of me saying he is going to do it to get away from me
17. making me out to be the dysfunctional crazy one to everyone
18. Bringing up my past relationships and my failures continually things i shared with him that he used against me
19. Brett correcting my vocabulary and spelling and grammar always "its an not A" " its television not TV" and punctuation in text
20. Lying to my face about talking to girls in general and getting numbers and hiding texts and numbers....deceitful all the way around putting them under mens names. if not texting them flirting behind my back while up at the casinos or deleting everything or keeping it on facebook
21. Lying to my face about texting girls and outbox always empty or texts missing i caught him lying about this the entire time there was never one time he was not talking to another girl no matter how many times he looked at my face and said he wasn't doing that anymore
22. Lying about larissa and me finding out from going up there and finding her that he gave her his number said she didnt have a boyfriend and him saying he was single
23. Stealing my cell phone this last time when I threw him out, he says he doesn't have it he does. Just like he had the key for my car he said he didn't have yet he got his Cd's out of my car
to add to the above i had asked him prior to this if he had the spare key for my car he said NO
24. Lying to my face about another girl at his work. he set it up to sound like a girl at his work was making him uncomfortable, that there was a list where the employees have their numbers written down and he is worried she "might text me" we just moved to the town two weeks ago, throughout the week working there he was coming home later and later and texting saying it was his mom or sister. Never was..this is a repeated offense
One night at 11:00 she text him while him and i were cuddling. I asked him who was texting him he say it was his sister saying hey brother whats up, when i asked to see his phone he said no, walked away saying you don't trust me and your making me angry right now i followed him to the bedroom where he deleted everything in text or was texting and i threw his ass out immediately...while he was packing his shit i called the number left in the phone and a girl answered i said who did it first she said he did that he put his number into her phone..he denied it said i believe her over him and i had enough and he was gone the whole time he packed his shit in garbage bags he told me i don't trust him and believe her over him and that he was going to take care of it because it was embarrassing she was texting him when he told her about me....i didn't buy it..he called left 26 messages , got to co week later told me the truth that he did do it ( like he was doing me a favor for telling me the truth)
25. Went behind my back and talked to Aubrey and emily
26. Threatening me of a place to live all the time I was thrown out in any form of fight or broke up with or both then got mad when i would leave and said he never said it was over
27. he was quick to start grabbing my stuff and packing it
28. Broke up with me all the time more then ten times more then twenty when i would leave he would say i didn't say i was breaking up with you where are you going..your leaving me
29. Blamed me for his unsuccessfulness in wanting to be a performer and that i could have but never supported him so ultimately blames me for not doing anything to support his dreams of being famous singer like micheal buble
30. Letting his mom verbally bash and abuse me at her bar did nothing to protect me ever. very defensive over her
31. Never told the truth about anything as near as I can tell that he has ever told me air force, capitol records, where he is, what he does, texts, calls, interactions...talking about me..etc. he has a kid..how many people he slept with...nothing is the truth or real with him for that matter
32. Lied about capital records, he never went lied majorly about it said he went to la twice for it< there never was a capital records>dont know what he did all those days he was texting me from "down there"
33. Once he had me in the corner at the pines and kept me there grabbing my face and telling me to put my arms down that I had up to protect myself he kept slapping them and grabbed my closed fists hitting himself in the head with my own hands this is very very sick he his hit himself with my body countless times
34. In this same fight someone text him and he stopped what he was doing to me and answered and then continued hurting me raging on me
35.never showed any empathy or remorse for anything said or done ever EVER
36. Threaten he was the best I will ever find and ill never find anyone like him and that he is a catch and never cheated on me and only loved me everyday< basically that its me>he did everything he could and i wouldn't be where i am today without him
37. Ripped the necklace my son gave me off my neck at the pines and broke it
38. Dumped all my makeup and everything everywhere breaking a lot of it in a fight
39.Holding over my head how much he has done for me..he has done nothing for me
40. Trying to say he brought me to wa when I paid my own damn way and drove my own damn car
41. constantly put words into my mouth or said things i didn't say and saying it like i did. twisting my words
42. found ways to sabotage friendships i was developing constantly
43. was extremely jealous all the time ALL THE TIME
44. he made comments like "those earings that were really thin that you could run your finger through" i never had earrings like that , and would tell him this..subject got dropped..couldnt seem to keep his girlfriends straight
45. after he physically hurt me there was no real emotions, nothing genuine he would say stuff like you know how i get or you were not validating my feelings
46. he changed his story multiple times about how many people he has been with
47. Tells me i cant let the past go
48. he sticks to the lie " i never cheated on you"
Blue and Moons...
wow
wow, Blue, Wow.... You are a
You have that list
I read something like that.
Nothing to miss about that
Oh, so glad you're not with
I can see why you miss him?.
I too had most of those
those are facts
Blue
Jeez Blue, I could hardly
It was really a horrible
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