OUTSIDE THE BUBBLE AND SEEING CLEAR

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#1 Aug 12 - 3PM
cdngemini
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OUTSIDE THE BUBBLE AND SEEING CLEAR

Over the course of these two days - I have now find myself thinking of all the things that didn't sit well in my stomach and now that I'm outside of the bubble, I can't believe the lies.

when he said he was going to hockey, didn't. When he said that he needed to go home and work, came over late, he wasn't. When he always said that Friday he was either working or going out with his roommate, but the next morning saying "Good morning CL" instead of "Good morning sweetheart". RED FLAGS/

I also know the times he was in his "narisstic hibernation". Distant, doesn't eat or sleep because they need to get their strength back to get more primary supplies.

He wanted to make me feel like I wasn't liked by his friends and family, when now when I talk to them, they actually like me more than him.

Why didnt I see all this stuff before - WHY? I can't stop thinking. I lie awake thinking of all the times I was used, lied to, manipulated and I hate it. I get sad, I get angry and the rage overwhelmes me.

HELP ME - how do I get normalcy - how do I stop thinking about all this shit - because it is shit. Why do I still feel the need for closure, and why couldn't he had just said sorry face to face?

I hate that I obsess over this crap - I hate that I never want to hear from him again, its just that all that I pushed from my brain while seeing him, NOW I think of it all.

HAS ANYONE FELT LIKE THIS - please help - please understand where I'm at in this healing journey - I want help

Sep 6 - 8AM
Froglegs
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You're not alone.

Aug 14 - 10AM
DLP75
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1 year