This pain in my heart

This whole ordeal doesn't damage our heart's capacity to love and to trust. It just teaches us to protect it better. Last year, when I was afraid my heart would just shrivel up and die, someone I met at a retreat told me: "Our heart can only remain open if we have strong boundaries and it knows it's protected." It's been a year since my D&D and the love I felt for the narc is still there... it is bubbling inside of me and making me feel good... but it is not focussed on him anymore! I consciously focus it on myself every day. I feel very open towards other people, not paranoid, not bitter, but I try to be aware of my boundaries, because this is where I've failed myself in the past. It takes courage and strength to remain open and loving after what happened to us. It seems safer to just close ourselves off and keep everyone out. But all we have to do is maintain those boundaries without compromise, and we will create a safe space in which our heart can play and grow and be happy. :)

I'm always trying to find positive in the negative, so this is great. I'm on board with you!

Keep this Buzz alive.. Hunter