Rebuilding your dignity after Narc abuse

Hi everyone

I've been away from the forum for a while, focusing on studying, meeting new people, and cutting people out of my life when they turn into abusive arseholes.

The encounter with the Reptile has still left scars on my mind, though.
I feel like I have lost all my dignity.
I fear running into him again in public, and am hiding myself away in my own suburb. I won't go to town or the beach in case he sees me and smirks.

How can we rebuild our sense of dignity, pride and self respect after narc abuse?
I am dieting, dressing better, wearing makeup, and being much more self contained on Facebook. I'm trying to lift my game overall, trying to present a much more "together" front.

But inside, I still feel utterly scarred by the Narc and his mistreatment.
I feel less-than, inferior, exposed, trashed, common and ordinary.

:(

It's been almost 2 years since the D&D and he has not returned, most probably won't. I don't want to lose the rest of my life to this utter loser!