Repairing the battered ego

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#1 Sep 26 - 7PM
kollontai77
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Repairing the battered ego

Despite knowing that he is a disgusting human being, I am still having problems with true NC, spying on his Facebook, in order to laugh at how much of a loser he is.

Most of the time it works, except when I see photos of his exes, and compare myself unfavourably to them. "He must be cool if she is still in his life", "Why am I not cool and interesting enough for him to know" "She is thinner than me" "At least she had a kid with him, I have not reproduced, therefore I am a failure and inferior"..... etc etc etc.

It hit me yesterday, that after this N situation ended, my ego was so battered by him, that I am relying on him continuing to be a loser idiot on facebook, to laugh at him, to restore my self esteem. In essence I am acting like a narcissist, needing to put someone else down to raise myself up.... because he did that to me.

It's not doing my spiritual evolution any favours, you're supposed to dissolve your ego and love everyone...... but I am struggling to put my ego back together, and am thinking horribly to do so.

Are there any other solutions to healing from this?

Oct 3 - 4PM
Janie53
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Kollontai77

Oct 3 - 8AM
iamwoman
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omg i know how you feel..i

Oct 2 - 2PM
shock and awe.some
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Been there, done that

Oct 2 - 3AM
Goldie
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Facebook Stalking keeps the Buzz ALIVE

Oct 2 - 2PM (Reply to #11)
TruthbeginsToday
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Goldie this is as always, helpful

Oct 2 - 2PM (Reply to #8)
shock and awe.some
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Ah Goldie, I want to cry

Oct 2 - 3PM (Reply to #9)
Goldie
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All I can say, is you will know

Oct 3 - 3PM (Reply to #10)
shock and awe.some
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TU

Oct 5 - 4PM
kollontai77
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Oct 5 - 4PM
kollontai77
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Sep 26 - 9PM
Done sourcing
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You've been a member for one

Sep 26 - 9PM
no more an echo
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self-protection / preventative medicine

Sep 26 - 7PM
Journey
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Yes, complete NC and working

Journey on...

Oct 2 - 2PM (Reply to #2)
shock and awe.some
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Hmmm very good thought