Repairing the battered ego
Repairing the battered ego
Despite knowing that he is a disgusting human being, I am still having problems with true NC, spying on his Facebook, in order to laugh at how much of a loser he is.
Most of the time it works, except when I see photos of his exes, and compare myself unfavourably to them. "He must be cool if she is still in his life", "Why am I not cool and interesting enough for him to know" "She is thinner than me" "At least she had a kid with him, I have not reproduced, therefore I am a failure and inferior"..... etc etc etc.
It hit me yesterday, that after this N situation ended, my ego was so battered by him, that I am relying on him continuing to be a loser idiot on facebook, to laugh at him, to restore my self esteem. In essence I am acting like a narcissist, needing to put someone else down to raise myself up.... because he did that to me.
It's not doing my spiritual evolution any favours, you're supposed to dissolve your ego and love everyone...... but I am struggling to put my ego back together, and am thinking horribly to do so.
Are there any other solutions to healing from this?
Kollontai77
omg i know how you feel..i
Been there, done that
Facebook Stalking keeps the Buzz ALIVE
Goldie this is as always, helpful
Ah Goldie, I want to cry
All I can say, is you will know
TU
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You've been a member for one
self-protection / preventative medicine
Yes, complete NC and working
Journey on...
Hmmm very good thought