The Return of CharlieSheenWinning

I'll share this with you all because other people just don't get it and I know you will.

A little backstory to refresh people's memories or introduce my story: I was involved with a wretched narc I dubbed CharlieSheenWinning on and off for 7 years. He never wanted a relationship with me but I still hung on because I loved him. He kept going back to his "real" girlfriend. Two years ago I took a trip to visit him when he temporarily left the country for a job. He returned to my town a month after I went to see him and told me he was still in love with the real girlfriend. I broke it off in no uncertain terms.

Three weeks later he married a woman who was NOT the real girlfriend. This was a woman knew for only for 3 weeks. He got together with her the day after I broke things off.

I suffered such bad ptsd from the entire experience I couldn't leave my house except to go to work for over 2 months. Thankfully, in that time I found this board.

I managed to avoid him for two years until last night. I went to a local pub and was informed by a friend that he was there. My friend said, "I was just talking about him today, too." My reply: "Well, he's like the devil. Say his name and you conjure him up."

The good news is that he said nothing to me. The better news is that he was with his wife (yes, they're still together!) but I didn't feel as bad about it as I thought I would. It didn't make me feel like shit to see them together. In fact, I felt glad that I'm out of that whole bad situation.

A couple of my friends came in and sat at an empty table that was right behind him and WinningWife. I didn't let that stop me. I went over, sat with my friends, and actually felt okay about it.

I will confess that when I first learned he was there, I recited in my head all the people's names that I could remember from this site. You all have been such a help to me, it really helped at that scary moment to remember you all.

He and WinningWife left before I did.

I still feel okay today. I thought there might be some residual ptsd backlash or something, but so far so good.

I don't know what else to say except thanks. Thanks for being so there for me that I immediately thought of you all when I needed a bit of strength.

{{hugs}}