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#1 Jul 7 - 3AM
Littleone
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Revenge

Well I think I'm heading in to indifference. Hallelujah! It's so freeing!

In the beginning I wanted revenge in the form of splattering his brains all over the wall. Psycho I know.
A bit further along, I wanted to beat him up and actually took kickboxing classes to accomplish this. (im still doing them but not for that reason).
Further along again in recovery I wanted to see him out when I was looking hot and was with some spunky guy who is bigger and much better looking.
Now I would rather not see him out at all. But if I do, he would see how good I look now (I've lost a lot of weight). I would be having fun with my friends and I would barely give him a second glance. Because I am to busy enjoying my life.

I think I'm progressing!

Jul 7 - 6AM
sara-smile
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OMG Littleone

This made me laugh out loud!! It sounds just like something I would write. I wanted to splatter his brains on the wall with a baseball bat, run over him with my car and all kinds of horrible things. PSYCHO! (they make us that way) Love it that you took kick-boxing classes so you could beat him up. That cracks me UP! The best part of that is it got you in shape and now you do it for YOU because he is not even worth the time or effort. Good job Littleone and thank you for the laugh this morning!
Jul 7 - 8PM (Reply to #7)
Hunter
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Sara

I thought you still had that bat out! Hunter
Jul 7 - 6AM (Reply to #6)
Littleone
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I can't help but laugh at the

I can't help but laugh at the place I used to be in too! I was deadly serious about all of these revenge fantasies and had all these 'plans'. My most long standing plan was the beat him up one. I actually was seriously going to do this!! My plan was to 'jump' him at 4am when he walks out of his house to his car to go to work. I'm sure I'd be able to do it in time, with more training- but the funny thing about this is he is 6'4 & I'm 5ft LOL I'm a strong little thing though, but i just can't believe where my head was at only about a month ago! My kickboxing trainer kept giving me strange looks when I requested to be put with a tall person rather than a short person in training. Hahaha It's a good skill to have though, I'm not as scared as I used to be now and I'm confident i could inflict some damage on anyone who messed with me. The baseball bat... Oh yes... Ive had many 'smiling myself to sleep' moments visualizing this one. Oh oh and a him being squished by a semi trailer lol Now I sound REALLY crazy!! It's good to look back at this stuff and see how far I've come. I'd still like to beat him up tho... Let's just hope he gets violent with me in a couple of years or so and he'll give me a reason to show off my new skills lol. until then, I'll keep doing it for myself and not waste a second of time or energy on such a piece of poo. They really aren't worth it, but they do make good inspiration for the punching bag!
Jul 7 - 4AM
Puzzle
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Awesome news babe. I'm in the

Awesome news babe. I'm in the kills stage, I want to hurt him!!! It is only in the last 2 days that I have felt this way. Seeing him all happy and chatty with the new blonde teacher at work (who got my fucking job I was promised), made me want to slash his tyres and punch him in the balls. Good on you for getting past it, I think the end is in sight for you x
Jul 7 - 6PM (Reply to #4)
Littleone
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Ive been waiting for you to

Ive been waiting for you to reach this stage puzzle pie, it's incredible the rage that develops! Ride through it, it will get better!
Jul 7 - 6AM (Reply to #2)
fooled no longer
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best revenge, rise above his

best revenge, rise above his low life scum.
Jul 7 - 11AM (Reply to #3)
trying2heal
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LittleOne

my father always called me this name, I loved your post! so true to how I feel and my words!! I also take karate. :)