viagra. Any thoughts ?

I found viagra opened in one of his cupboards. This was around the same time that I started to get really uneasy about him and think maybe he had cheated. Its when it all started to unravel really. Anyway he raged at me then I got the silent treatment and true to form by the time hed started to be nice to me again I was just so grateful I left the subject alone. Needless to say the viagra disappeared from the cupboard. However a while later I found evidence of oppened and used sachets of liquid viagra on top of cupboards. Then more recently I found a half eaten large blue viagra tablet and then the next day it was gone. I was staying with him at the time and I don't remember his erection being any different. But I began to think about it and couldn't understand why ? Anyway he used sex to hook me in because my ex and I had no sex life and he had erection problems so N has always provided me with lots of sex sometimes 5 times in a few hours and would keep an erection for a long time. Sometimes being unable to ejaculate which I put down to us having too much sex. I must add. I didn't actually want that much sex and the novelty soon wore off for me and I began to feel objectified and although he thinks he's the greatest lover he really wasn't, I just became very good at faking it lol. And although he was very large I can honestly say size isn't everything. Sex was boring and the same bloody routine everytime !! No imagination ! So anyway why the viagra ? If he wanted to spice things up why not say ? Selfish to the last I suppose but its something that has hung around in my head. When he raged at me the other day and said go back to your ex see if he can get a hard on now just get him some viagra, I said. Perhaps you could give him some of yours! He didn't bat an eye. Lying decieving stupid arse. I've had all sorts of horrible thoughts about why he uses it. I don't know but maybe it was just to make himself look like a stud who could go for hours time and time again. Quite frankly, who wants to with a bore like him ! When I spent more than a week with him I couldn't bear the thought of having to do it every night and every morning and in between. I'm not sure what he was trying to prove or whether he is juat a sex addict which makes me think how did he manage when we saw very little of each other. Makes me sick. Just needed to get that off my chest