VICTORY IS MINE!

Hi Everyone,
Well, I finally did it!. The move is behind me and I am leaving it and him in the rear view. Me and 3 of my best friends got to his house with the uhaul around 11 am. The N was in true form, cold as ice, rude, arrogant, detachment and possibly for the first time, without his mask. I looked at him and saw nothing. I felt nothing moving my things from the house. I went through each room picked up odds and ends and didn't even care. He had most of my things already out in the garage. As I was unpacking last night I could not believe he went as far as to pack up the apple peeler I bought and the bx of qtips. He wanted and did erase me from the picture...Like I didnt even happen. I think this was his last attempt to punish me...but it didn't work...Because I showed no emotion at all....I was actually laughing with my friends at the whole inconvenience of moving in general. We all ignored the N completely. I kissed and hugged his beautiful dog, and cat I whispered loving things in their little ears that I will always love and miss them. At more than one point the N looked at me and tried to engage eye contact I looked away and he said "I'm sorry we didn't work out"... I shrugged and said "I'm sorry too." There were a number of times I could see him staring at me but I would not look at him at all. My friends packed up the truck he handed me 150. for the uhaul... as I walked away he said "good luck, Pam" I didnt turn around and i just said "yeah, you too".

I unpacked some last night and I woke up this morning with a HUGE weight lifted. Knowing I NEVER have to go to that one horse town again or EVER see him is the biggest relief I have had in many years. I saw his true colors yesterday and that wasn't anything like the man I thought I knew...Good riddance.....I deserve better. We all do....YAY ME!!!!!!