Why Did I Love Him?

So, I'm having a I guess bad day. As most of you know it's been really stressful for the last few weeks.

I'm sitting here trying to figure out why I loved him so desperately. Do I really think so little of myself and what I deserve that I am willing to completely love and give everything to someone who tosses me some crumbs and settle for that? Do I really believe that I don't deserve someone who gives to me as I give to everyone else? What is it that makes me feel as though I am "less than" and deserve less? That's the key and I know it and I have to figure it out. More importantly I have to believe, truly believe that I'm worth it and deserve better.

I can talk the talk until I'm blue and it makes no difference at all - I have to "know" it and believe it. Gots lots of work to do.

Hope that everyone is doing the work no matter how hard it is.

Feel the pain and have the courage to make the change.

xoxox