Why Do I Feel Like The Bastard Is Winning?
Why Do I Feel Like The Bastard Is Winning?
Argggh...this is so irritating! I booted a whole slew of mutual friends out of my facebook account this weekend...no regrets in doing so, either.
But here's the thing...I cannot be NC...well, I can...but that means I have to give up doing something I love...it's a hobby, it takes me all over the world to compete and I'm ranked as a professional...I've spent years practicing and competing...I've made some amazing friends, many of whom I consider to be more than acquaintances, from all over the place.
These mutual friends (and I use that term loosely)...are players on the local level, some of whom also compete nationally - this group includes the ex Narc. This was the venue he chose to ambush me with an OW two months ago. I left, as I knew he was only there to create drama that night and I wanted no part of it. I haven't returned since.
I feel like I have been being shunned by a lot of mutual player friends and in some cases, openly disrespected. I'm sure I'm being called all kinds of things to them by him...and I'm sure that my mass defriending of many of them this weekend will only fuel the fire.
I have to practice and compete locally if I hope to stay competitive on the national/international level. But I have to see this sick asshole and these other people if I want to do that.
The defriending was therapeutic on a couple of levels...one being that I no longer have to concern myself about 'sparing' their feelings through my presence and xN's presence creating an air of awkwardness...I no longer care what effect my presence has on them, as their feelings are now no longer my concern.
His push since we split has been to get me to quit the game for good and just go away. If I do that, then he is controlling my decisions...as I wouldn't walk away from something I love to do for any other reason to avoid his bullshit. If I stay with it, I have to deal with people who are double-dealing jerks AND see HIM on top of it. Which means, MORE drama and more crap.
What to do?
No win
Everyone makes great points.
this is a good example of why you dont shit where you eat
He introduced me to this
Syren66
I am in the same predicament.
I have another option...and
Syren
I totally get what you're
Other group, Syren?
Funny you should ask...there
Sounding good, Syren
I have a lot of close