You will not even BELIEVE what I did in response to the text message....

So my plan was not to respond. But I forwarded his text to my best friend and was texting so fast that the I text I was trying to send her I sent to f'ing him!? Can you believe it!? FML! This was our convo:

Me: Isn't that weird. I never told him that I hated him.

Me Sorry I hate my phone. Listen I don't know how I feel but I know I can't speak to you anymore. And you haven't cared about my feelings in 5 months. Good luck with life and finding an emotionally stable girlfriend. Goodbye.

NO REPONSE

Me: Any last words?

Narc: hmm..thank you for everything you ever did for me and I hope one day we can pick up where we left off. I love you and I will miss you for a long time..."

I didn't respond. But I'm still so freaking pissed I sent him that initial text by accident. Ugh. F him. I hate him. I hate that he stills try to feed me false hope. He hurt me so so much why did I even contact him in the first place.

I'm so mad at myself right now. The one chance I have to get my dignity back I f it all up!!!!!!!!!!