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#1 Oct 29 - 1AM
blueworld
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your honest insight is much needed

i am 20 days no contact with my ex N
and i forgot ages ago i was subscribed to his you tube

anyways it sent me a email he added a new video and its him recording the song "broken" from seether in a recording studio

here are the lyrics

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You're gone away

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You're gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

i almost threw up im so upset right now

Oct 29 - 2AM
rosedewittbukater
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Broken

Honey, I don't know your whole story yet. But healthy people do not (repeat do not) communicate this way. They don't post videos, write vague status updates on social networking sites, etc. To me it seems like this is what he may be trying to do. Don't get sucked back in! ACTIONS are what counts. I can post videos all day long and turn around and treat my partner with zero respect - like garbage. I am sorry you had to see this. Please unsubscribe to his channel. Unless you enjoy feeling this kind of pain everytime he decides to post some video. Understand I say this with love. Want you to love yourself enough to not allow him to continue hurting you. xx, Rose p.s. that's a great song
Oct 29 - 2AM (Reply to #2)
blueworld
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im physically ill

i have now blocked that and deleted all of it. i wish too i didnt see it...i dont know why for a demo he picked that song...its ..sick and it is just...sick i wish i didnt watch it and listen to him sing....now i hurt all over again thinking he is going to make it big as a artist...i really hate myself right now..i have NC and i havent thought about contacting him...now i just feel so torn up and so upset like i just caught him in another lie again or at the very begining when he was tearing me apart heartlessly...i hate myself so much right now.... he looked great on the video....happy its so nausiating WHY THAT SONG!?!?
Oct 29 - 7AM (Reply to #3)
Winter
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Blueworld

I know what you feel and think. "Why that song?" I know you are touched deeply... It does affect you. Bur Rose is absolutely right: normal people do not communicate this way. It is all mind games. With normal people we are not constantly asking: "what does he mean by this, why has he done that... and so on) Maybe he knew it would affect you and he likes to have you hooked... Maybe it has nothing to do with you and he just liked the song. Maybe he likes to feel himself like in a movie... Honey, we can only guess. And this is why, again, normal pelple communicate in a open and comprehensive way. They care for their partners to receive a clear and not ambigious messages. Teenagers mind games... Who need it?