I Can't Believe IT's Story
I Can't Believe IT's Story
My story is different. My N is my love. I am trying to face the truth but it is a slow process. 5 weeks ago, I told him I never wanted to see him again. I have wept. I have wept alot. I believe in the power of attraction.
*I am grateful and thankful I will have a beautiful loving life without him!!!(It's my chant!!)
I am a very spiritual person. I have cried for him and I pray for him. I feel sick when I read all this information. I believe his love for me was authentic and prior to his state of N. We have known each other and friends since we were 14 years old. Our time together was innocent. Way back when!!!
I think he is a highly functioning Somatic N. No one but his woman would know his dysfunction. We have shared a deeply emotional connection from a long distance apart. 3 years ago sept. he told me his feelings had changed to a romantic nature. I broke off a 7 yr relationship to be with him. He was going to break off from the woman who he had the affair with that ended his marriage. I believed him. He would talk such amazing talk to me. I/we was/were euphoric! We would get so close....and then I wouldn't hear from him...I started seeing and living this painful pattern. ON-OFF.....ON-OFF.......ON-OFF....He seduced me from a distance with promises of our long awaited life together. He was extremely sexual and loved the erotic. He visited me many times and we evolved in our physical intimacy.
He was my "Mama Mia"!! We would be together!!!
This last time 10 weeks ago...we were so close and then he shut me out for NO reason. He would not respond to my text or e-mails...At first I figured he'd eventually respond ...he didn't....
my pain was so deep this time...............I finally told him 5 weeks ago in a text
"I NEVER want to see you again"........
I am an intelligent, accomplished woman with many degrees....I make a great living...I am very independent...I am charitable and sweet!
I am broken hearted that my deep felt love for this man has been so tossed aside.
I am processing my decision. I KNOW I deserve to loved by a loving and healthy man. I know I will pull through this ....I will use my artistic talents and create beauty out of this pain. I realize that I am not "woman enough" for this man and his addiction. I actually feel sorry for his new source. I want to be strong enough to ignore him when he tries to make contact with me. I believe he will eventually as he has in the past 43 years....he told me he was closer to me than any person in the world. I believe him except he threw me in his "authentic heart box" and threw away the key so he can pursue his fake and deceitful macho life. My final words to him were "Finite... Mi Amori" ............I loved him ....but I love me more!!! God help me and every person who suffers the pain from this Narcisisstic Illness..........it dwells in the deepest recesses of our hearts and souls....I pray "God forgive him...he knows what he does" He will never know how much he hurt me....because he will never speak to me again...Amen!!
ps. This info has helped me piece my story together....I never suffered the verbal abuse that I have read about...I suffered from the lies, manipulation, seduction, and the broken dreams and most of all the SILENCE....the worst abuse of all.......SILENCE
I can't believe it....it's numbing
my story too
Take CARE of Yourself
Want it or not - you are in
The law of attraction
Five weeks
This is the strongest I have felt!
Beach Dreamer...
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spinning_thank you
Welcome...same story, different N
Beach dreamer
You are Right
Beach Comber
Thank you... Sherry ...for
ditto