I steer clear of the 1-3 board completely for this very reason. I have read, researched, asked questions, cried, prayed, begged, read some more, friended Sam Vaknin on Facebook to pick his brain, yada, yada, yada until I am so sick of NARC ANYTHING.
I am focusing on me now...what makes me tick, what drives me to do what I do, what I can do now to ensure this never happens again. It has been a true awakening and a journey that is far from over.
If I read one more post on the OW I may run screaming in to the night (with the exception of Sparrow's)!!!!!!
The journey is very cool most of the time now. It is ironic that the devastation of the d and d and aftermath catapulted me into willingness to move forward and have an open mind to presence and light!
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SO AGREE! I have been on this site for 29 weeks and 23 hours exactly. Thats how long it has taken me to understand this devil and there are still sooo many things I don't understand.
Kiwi and I were talking today and we touched on the topic of: "If these are the things we know, imagine all the things we don't!" And the truth is, I really don't wanna freakin know. I've read sososo much and now I just don't really care how he came to be this way, I just want him to stay the heck away from me!
I think this is a good sign!! I think this means we have moved on to step 2! Woo! Go us! This means we're getting better :)
A very good sign indeed! I forgot to put on the Garlic Necklace for a short period and got narced real good. It stung a bit, but did no lasting damage. I don't care how the exwn got to be the way she is, I do wish she would be different for our kid, but life doesn't always work out the way we would like. The last step in grieving is acceptance, and as I have tasted it before I am sure it will come again soon. Contact has become tedious and boring, as I want so much more in my life than to adore the unadorable and respect the unrespectable!
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I'm in the same boat
The journey is very cool most
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A very good sign indeed! I
I welcome venting anytime and
Sam says it better
Thanks Hunter