HE'S DEAD.....

he refused to have anything to do with his children....he refused to pay child support....when he was dying i tried to get those girls some closure and called their mother, his ex....the girls did come to see him.....and talked about having a service for him......so today i emailed his ex and asked her what they had in mind, because i thought they'd want his damn ashes for any SERVICE they were planning........and she emailed me and just unloaded on me....blaming me for his years of bad behavior!!..the bastard lived in the basement for the last three years of THEIR marriage...guess that's my fault too!!... it's pretty typical that he was always looking for someone to blame for his nasty behavior..usually me..... but it really pisses me off that his ex wife is now looking to make his stinking carcass into a SAINT...and blame me for his bad behavior...including his bad behavior from before i ever knew him....... screw them all.......

the bastard.....his Vonage voicemail was going to his email..and you can play them online....he's got calls on there from three different women.....'when you gonna call me back baby?'......'is that fucking bitch still stalking you?'.....and one that said..'i've got some xanax, call me'......she's the one i called first with the bad news........that bastard...that nasty bastard........

I know you're not in position to write a book but maybe someday you should consider writting a book about your life with a psychopath. It is truly unbelievable! You are so good at putting your words & thoughts together, I'm sure you'll do a good job at it. For now, I hope you can finally see the light! (Can you give Barbara permission to give me your email address? :)

Physical evidence of the lengths they will go to IS shocking and even more so, is the fact that they get away with it, while the truly innocent victims suffer.

wow.....i had taken a bunch of paperwork from his rat hole last week...went through some of it last night.... he was writing letters to the IRS...trying to shove his old tax debt onto me.... he was writing letters to creditors...trying to shove his debts off onto me.... he was looking up people from years ago...sending them emails...telling them how i had abused him..... i'm just.....i can't even describe it...it's not that i didn't know what he was capable off...not that i didn't assume he was doing this sort of thing....it's just the seeing it in writing....in his own words.. it was shocking.....his viciousness...just beyond the scope of my imagination

I had a dream quite a few weeks ago. I felt like I was having an outer body experience. I was in a boiling pool of blood with skeletons staring at me. I was shaking and terrified. I believe that God wanted me to have empathy for N seeing from his perception what he was facing after death. This is the closest thing I have to understanding hell. I truly feel that I had an opportunity through that dream to experience the pure fear of Hell. Saying BEN's name to PsychoNarc was a moot point. That was for you. Mike is dead. We don't know but we c, assume he is in Hell. I don't know what your beliefs are NarcNarc and I certainly do not mean to offend you. I just want you to heal. If I didn't have so many lawyers bills I would send you $ bc I know you are a sincere person who really is financially struggling. I don't know why good people have to suffer. I do know this is your chance. Your story has made quite an impression on my life and I'm positive others' have been touched by your story as well. No matter what you're feeling right now, he cannot hurt you ever again. Yes, choices he made when he was alive still linger. Here's wishing you the strength to change that. Your choices cannot be damned by him EVER again! http://hubpages.com/hub/Married-to-a-Narcissist?preview nolongercontrolled

last night i had dreams...i HOPE they were dreams... he was here...GRINNING at me...that wide toothy grin...pleased with himself..... i woke up at 2, shaking....almost in hysterics.... watching him die was even more horrible than watching him live...someone LIVING without remorse or regret or apology is one thing.....but watching someone who has done the things he's done DIE the same way...... i can't even begin to explain how it felt.... i wish i had it all on videotape...for Dr. Robert Hare to see....i bet even he has never witnessed a psycopath dying..manipulating, lying , conning to the very end..... i didn't want to see his carcass...because i feel it's safe to assume he went with a smirk on his face....

This is a day to be happy as it is the start of your new life. I wish you all the best.

I am sorry for your loss and pain, and hope and pray that today is the first day of a new and better life for you.

My thoughts are with you. Please get my email from Barbara & let me know if there's anything i can help you with...

Are you going to get any social security benefits??? It's not much, but may help you. I'm sorry for the hell you have been through. Maybe now the healing can begin.

Finally! I hope that in the coming days you will feel a tremendous sense of relief such as you have never felt before and that you will be able to start picking up the pieces of your life and rebuilding a life where you will be at peace somehow.

he was unresponsive all day yesterday....i thought about going out there.....but it was pouring down rain...i couldn't afford the gas, etc.... this morning they called and i was going to go out there...for the famous final scene....but i could hear another nurse talking in the background...saying i could never get there in time.....the first nurse asked me if i wanted to say anything to him...because hearing is the last thing to go....so i said yes....please hold the phone to his ear.....and i said.. 'mike...can you hear me?..are you AVAILABLE?..i hope you can hear me........BEN...BEN...BEN....' i wanted that to be the last thing he ever heard....BEN'S name....i hope it's the last thing the murderous bastard heard....my baby's name....... i still don't feel like justice was served...he didn't suffer enough....there was no confession.....no apology....and whether he's dead or alive....he did what he set out to do...he completely destroyed my life....he did it....that isn't changed by his death.....if he'd died a year or so ago, when i could still afford the insurance premiums...i wouldn't have a care left in this world......he always said that when he was through with me i would be destroyed...and it's true...he skipped out.....taking no debt...no responsbility...he just once again strolled off into the sunset...leaving someone else to shovel up the mess.... i hate him more today than i ever have.........