need out
need out
So it has officially been over a year with this man. I have shared several stories on this forum and each time I seem to get a little stronger.
This time I am struggling for answers. Why does it seem like this man really hates me? It seems like the more I give and the nicer I am the more mean he is to me and the worse he treats me. Take for example, last night I took his son out for his bday (which is today) while he had a previous engagement. I bought him his present, had a wonderful evening doing fun "kid things." My guy doesn't tell me thank you. Doesn't ask how the night was--nothing. I call him when he is on his way home and he seems mad. He pulls the silent treatment and won't tell me what is going on. I don't understand. Today, he tells me he has to go to a meeting and I was to watch his son again. He doesn't ask me. He expects it.
This man lives at my house and pays nothing. I take care of all the bills, cleaning, groceris, make dinners and pay for things for his kids.
The other day we got into another arguement because I asked him why he was ignoring me and being mean to me. I finally said no other woman would let you live in their house for free and have you treat them the way you treat me. ( I never bring that up because I don't want HIM to feel bad) He says to me, "You would be paying bills anyway if I lived here or not. What's the big deal." I was so angry. He doesn't appreciate anything I do. He will come home from work. Not say anything to me. Change the tv channel and ignore me the whole night. If I say anything he will tell me to leave him alone.
He questions everything I do. I have not done anything with friends or family the past 9 months because if I do I have to take pictures to prove where I am. It's easier not going anywere so I don't have to put up with the harrassment.
I try to figure out weekly why he is mad at me and he won't ever communicate and does the ignoring thing. I cry and ask why and he tells me I have pushed him away and there is nothing there because I act like that. I feel like I do nothing right with this man. He has 2 ex wives whom he shares everything with. He has told them that I am a mean person. He is so very nice to the both of them and it really hurts me. He has told me the things they "apparently" did to him when they were married (cheating, spending money etc.) but he is super nice to them now. He has to support them and his children but treats me like crap while I support him. What's wrong with this picture?
Why do I still want to be with this guy. I feel like such a sick pathetic person. I hate who I am and see myself aging and becoming a person I never thought I would be.
Can anyone relate or give me any answers today?
N22
n22
Throw Him Out!
Nice
Nh22
Thank you
help
N22
NH22