I feel so inadequate now
I feel so inadequate now
How do you get over them? I have been NC since 2/14-- at my doing.
I feel all sick & twisted because I want him back so bad and yet I know he's all wrong for me.
I have not even seen him in a year-- we just had email contact and I dont know why-- but that contact meant so much to me.
I thought I could make him see.
I feel like a failure. An inadiquite failure.
Does anybody else sometimes think if we become what they want then they will finally want us back? I feel so fat and ugly... and it's strange-- I need/want validation from him-- ONLY HIM!
It's like if he does not give it to me that it's not good enough coming from somebody else. Why is this?
I sometimes wonder if I am an inverted narcissist. I'm not kidding-- my soul hurts. It's actually aches for him. I am in such a self struggle.
Part of me thinks that he opened up to me-- that makes me different-- like I can help him. I want so much for him to be the man I thought he was.
Help.
I need to get past him-- or just find a way not to obsess over a man I have not seen in a year-- just had sporatic emails with. (I had to not see him as he did some VERY hurtful sh%t to me over the years).
I feel crazy but part of me thought I was meant to be with him. Like we have/had some crazy connection.
Does anybody feel lie this???
I could have written this
something to think about
size and this disorder
Beam
Thank you. I'm always
They have a disorder, we are
That is exactly what
Beamoflight
It sounds funny when you
beam...I'm going
spinning
I'm trying ladies, I thank