I feel he's the only one to make the pain go away.

Another rough morning. Today I feel like he's the only one that can take the hurt away, but I know he would never email me back right now, IF EVER. Why do I feel like this!? It's hard to grasp this breathing person was only an illusion. I mean how can it be? He seemed so real!? I'm still having major issues with him deciding we weren't meant to be after 5 years! And only 4 months of being engaged and leading me on until the end.