LouLott3's Story (edited version)

I was jerked around and cheated on during my entire pregnancy. He'd give me the silent treatment then disappear only to return with an excuse about losing his phone...looking back I see how he never cared about me only tolerated me so he wouldnt look like the "bad guy" He recently told me that he only continued the relationship with me because I was pregnant. He said since he is a middle aged man he doesnt want to waste anymore time playing the "game" and that he wants what he wants! Ill let everyone know before he was so "Happy" and "Proud" to get a chance at another family and he basically trashed my son and I then spit on our faces.

He once handed me our baby and said "Well you got what you wanted sorry he's alot of work" He always canceled times/dates he set to see his son and when I'd get angry for his irresponsible disrespectful behavior he'd tell me that if I wanted to make him the "happiest man alive" I would make it so he'd NEVER have to see my son and I again! He'd rub it in my face that he moved on (which he has I got the pleasure to meet his lovely girlfriend *eyeroll* ONE of the women he cheated on me with during pregnancy and now theyre "Happy" together and he "Loves" her...more than he ever loved me according to him. He tells people that Im keeping his son away from him, and tells his new girlfriend that Im only mad at him because hes moved on..and Im jealous blah blah blah...jealous of what?

Her lazy eye and all those criminal charges? Im angry at the lack of respect he's shown me and more angry at myself for being forgiving and allowing him to misreat me..as sickening as it is he used to laugh at me and say "You must have stockhlm syndrome" and would come back to me after fights and say "I only devalued you because__________" whatever the reason may be.. then he'd be on his best behavior and I actually thought well maybe he is sincere and we can turn this around and raise our baby together! I was soo stupid!! I was pregnant emotionally beat down and just wanted the nightmare to end!!! I wish I would have stood up for myself but I was soo nauseous and tired :-( He knew he was a narcissist and was sooo proud! His eyes would light up with excitement when he knew he got the best of me! Anytime he made me cry or upset in anyway that was a WIN and it would put pepp in his step ! He would kick me out of his bed and Id sleep on the floor 6-9months pregnant because I didnt approve of his perverted behavior which lasted all night and always said he wouldnt have to engage in such activity if I would please him in those ways.

When I would throw up hed just look at me like I was disgusting and watch me struggle to bend over to try to clean it up! He always pointed out other women and say things like " Why would I want a hottie when I have a big pregnant you" Or "big black you" (I had melasma for a bit) He'd also turn the volume up so high we'd get noise complaints and he did this just because I told him the loud noise makes my pregnancy symptoms feel worst (Pressure headaches, nausea, heartburn) He didnt care! He did it all just to spite me!

HATE is a strong word but thats the only word that could describe my feelings towards him..Im soo angry! I believe he is evil! A monster! Im angry at myself for ever allowing anyone to speak to me that way or treat me that way!